Is it just me?
I do feel good, look good, healthier, closer to my rebuild phase and to achieving my ideal body, light and in a better mood and all, but I do feel deprived of the delicious food. The food that I used to enjoy so much..
I sometimes resent being on this diet. That's how much deprivation I am feeling.
Then right after the resentment, I hear myself saying:
"well.. you brought this upon yourself"
... if you havent let yourself go and hogged all those junk like there's no tomorrow, there wouldnt be a need to do something this drastic..
... if you have just learned the word: moderation, then maybe you will still be having those treats every now and then and wont let you balloon up to a 100kg
"what right do you have to complain and feel deprived then? you have hogged a lifetime's worth of chocolates and junk!"
Tough love shit..
Switched my meals today, Meal 2 for breakfast, meal 3 for lunch and meal 1 for dinner. I hope this will have a positive effect on my weightloss. Forgot my 2nd vitamin today, had 1 DC and all my crackers, pear and mango for my fruit allowance.. Cooked my next 3 days worth of meals.. eventhough not in the mood for it..
Day 52, DV free
I do feel good, look good, healthier, closer to my rebuild phase and to achieving my ideal body, light and in a better mood and all, but I do feel deprived of the delicious food. The food that I used to enjoy so much..
I sometimes resent being on this diet. That's how much deprivation I am feeling.
Then right after the resentment, I hear myself saying:
"well.. you brought this upon yourself"
... if you havent let yourself go and hogged all those junk like there's no tomorrow, there wouldnt be a need to do something this drastic..
... if you have just learned the word: moderation, then maybe you will still be having those treats every now and then and wont let you balloon up to a 100kg
"what right do you have to complain and feel deprived then? you have hogged a lifetime's worth of chocolates and junk!"
Tough love shit..
Switched my meals today, Meal 2 for breakfast, meal 3 for lunch and meal 1 for dinner. I hope this will have a positive effect on my weightloss. Forgot my 2nd vitamin today, had 1 DC and all my crackers, pear and mango for my fruit allowance.. Cooked my next 3 days worth of meals.. eventhough not in the mood for it..
Day 52, DV free
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