Week 5, 2021

Down by 10.2kgs after 5 weeks on being on the plan.

However, the 5th week only registered a loss of 1.2kgs.

Was it the peppermint tea?

Was it the 1st dose of vaccine?

Or the lack of sleep?

The use of olive oil instead of olive oil spray?

All of the above? Going to buy PAM later and start with it tomorrow and try my best to be in bed by 10pm and hopefully, i fall asleep by 10:30.

Week 6.. here we go..

24th Day: Revelations Lost in Time

Ok, so here am I thinking and complaining Im losing weight so slowly and just waking up everyday, weighing and getting off the scale disappointed. But someone from the forum suggested to check my past results, which I haven’t thought of doing because I thought I lost all that data in my corrupted hard drive. Luckily, I have this blog where I wrote Round-ups. I checked my ROUND UP ->Week 1 to 4 & Results and lo and behold, Im just being paranoid about my losses now. On my first 4 weeks during my first try, I lost 8.7kgs in total, and right now, I’ve already lost 6.4kgs and I still have 8 days to go until I complete 1 month.

So I guess this is in order:

 

But before I read the post in the forum, I already am a bit enlightened by the changes in my body in the span of 3 weeks: 

1. Clothes definitely fit better

1. My face looks less bloated

1. Skin looks so much better. I don’t really wear makeup and Im fortunate to work in an office that I can get away with bare skin.

I’m still tweaking my plan, trying to figure out which is causing me to lose at the rate that Im losing. I’m reducing my cracker intake and keeping off the mayo for a few days. I bought that Barts Mild Curry Powder and used it once, Im also going to wait until after my weigh in to use it again. I also really need to sort my sleep. Im not sleeping well and I feel tired. I think this is the missing factor to really get the best out of this diet.I also plan to do the same tracking as I used to, Im just not sure if I will have the patience for it. 😃Cheers to the day, still deviation free.

Day 40-41: Stressed

I feel really stressed for the past few days, I can feel it in my gut. Acidic. Or am I having too much coffee? I only have 1 really black coffee in a day on an empty stomach. I used to drink more.

 

The work load is coming, and I am foreseeing that I will soon feel that I'm not being paid enough for this. I have no problem with the workload, its fine, but the people, so toxic, not only my temp boss, but from others as well. I guess they are stressed too.

 

I need to find a way to relax myself. I want to stay positive and optimistic. I want these qualities to prevail over others. I don't want to be one of those people who are stressed, overworked and becomes a bitch. Because it tires you out. I feel tired after being angry or mean at people on a continuous basis.

 

Is this why the scale is not moving? Nah. Its been 2 weeks since Im in the 71kg area. I already asked my consultant about this. Im really getting fed up.

 

I cant wait for the long weekend. I want to switch off or just be at home and be quiet and maybe meet with a few friends on one of those days. But for my benefit, I will also try to work so that Im not left behind nor bogged down with emails when we are all back. These people work non-stop.

Other than that, same old same old. Same food, same routine, same thing about no movement in the scales. Im tired of it. Woke up this morning not wanting to weigh anymore because I keep seeing the same frustrating number.

Not going to check the scales anymore.

Day 40-41: deviation free, all allowances taken, vits too.
Mood = im ok, just workload makes me moody
Hunger = none.

 

Day 39: More old clothes to wear!

Did she really say that?

I'm finding more clothes that fit me better in my closet! :D Too bad I remove tags out because they annoy me, because now, I don't know what size I'm wearing. Work slacks, almost all are loose me. I think its just a matter of days before they wont look good on me anymore.

I was driving to work and I can feel that the blouse I was wearing that I could barely fit into a month before, was fitting me nicely. No struggle or squished parts. It felt nice and I was thinking about how good it is to feel this way. To feel like your in the top of your game (nutrition-wise), that you feel more comfortable about your body and that finally, you cant complain about this anymore!!!!! :D

In other news, I think I'm going to have a 10 day holiday for Eid and I'm just contemplating if I should travel or not. I don't want to waste that time by doing nothing and staying here, but at the same time, I don't want to possibly risk losing momentum. The best thing to do is stay and avoid the risk of spiraling out of control. I will have the same holidays next year. But the effort I've put in, its too much to lose. Hmmmm..

Again, the scale sucks. I don't want to look at it anymore :'(

Submitted my 2nd blood test today. Let's see what Wilma will say about that.

Nothing to report much. Same old. Still no announcement for our holidays. Worked so late that I was able to eat at 11pm.

Day 39: dinner at 11. all allowances taken. vits too.

Mood = ok

Hunger = none

Day 38: Bothered

I still don't get it. Why is my weight fluctuating? Its just playing between the same weight for 4days? I feel that am dropping size though. Its just that this programme measures your success predominantly on weight loss and that's really bothersome.

I know Im not supposed to weigh everyday, but I need that boost to know that hey, Im doing something right. But from the looks of it, Im doing something wrong? Could be my scale has a problem? But I tried it in 3 different locations in the house, its fine. I don't know. I live in a "container", you know those portacabins, so maybe our flooring is not level?

It feels so odd, that I see the difference in size yet the weight is really not going south.

Bothered.

I can feel like this and still have to continue with it. There's no way to go about it. I have set a goal and at this rate, Im not going to make it on time. I'm aware my body will lose what it needs to lose at its own time. But it has to happen by end of November (refeed), otherwise I stand a huge risk of falling off due to the holidays, and again not finishing this. Scares the shiz out of me.

Well enough of that. Need to shift focus.

Long weekend is coming up! whoop whoop! and Im not going anywhere, not travelling, no staycations, just at home. I don't want to spend and I don't want to break my diet. I can travel next year. I miss travelling though :( really bad. 

Today was pretty stressful. Boss was just in a seriously foul mood today, I tried to steee clear of her. Felt that acidity in my tummy that you get when you are stressed. I refuse to accept its too much coffee.

Day 38: deviation free. 1 cracker under allowance

Mood = so-so. Did not sleep well yesterday

Hunger = none. Just looked forward to a mango for dinner.

Day 14: Not hungry

Its a good thing right?

In terms of fruit allowance, Im eating under what is recommended, but the scales are not really being that friendly.. Slowwww losses. Thing is Im not really hungry, I didn't feel like having breakfast this morning and had it as late as I could-- 11. Just not hungry.

This plan is really not forgiving every time you don't follow it. You eat out of the plan, you suffer. You would think eating less will help you, you are mistaken.

But what to do?

In other news, bf planned something for anniversary tomorrow. I told him I will not eat out of plan and if he can ask wherever he has booked us to cook a Cohen friendly dinner for me, he said its totally not possible. I don't know what he has planned, but the effort of planning something secretive like this is well worth deviating for me. However, I still cant bring myself to accept that I will deviate. I do not want to. I worry about not being able to reign it in plus the delay on weight loss that it will come with it. Im actually ok to bring my packed dinner and eat there, but I guess that's out of the question. Let's see what happens tomorrow.

Came home late today. Went to a farewell get-together at an Irish pub. Didn't touch anything from there except diet Coke. It was so much fun. I would miss that ex-colleague of mine. I hope he does well back home in Ethiopia.

Day 14: Deviation free, 1 fruit and 1 cracker under, vitamins taken
Mood =  great and stress free
Hunger = 0.0

Day 51: Happy Easter!

Weighed in and after 10 days, I lost 1.4kg.. This is sooooo slow.. :(

Caught up with the diaries on the forum.. Im glad :)



Commit.. #tanning :p

Im on half day off today due to easter. So went to church then to the beach :) some more tanning.. After sunset, I went to meet my friend and hubby and her mom who's visiting for a month. Its been 5 years since I last saw her.
I thought today will be the day I'll deviate for dinner. I was expecting her mom to make me eat (which she did) and ofcourse I would not be able to refuse incessantly. Good thing is, my friend set her straight not to force me.. whew.. crisis averted..


Im such in a good mood today. Probably because I found an easter bunny chocolate on my desk hihihi..

I will be going on duty trip on 14-15May and 16-17May will be on personal. I will finally get to try the SWISS business class product (I've already tried ours and LH too) so Im really looking forward to it. But I dont think I will be on refeed during this time. My losses are going at a snail's pace. I asked the airline if I can take packed food on my hand carry, which I cant. But they told me that they have a low sodium option meals. It is going to be more than 6hours flight, landing at 9:20am and the conference starts at 10am! SO I will not take a checked-in luggage as I will have to rush to the conference, I need ensure that I can eat something close to a Cohen friendly meal onboard and make it to lunch. I am a bit nervous as to how I can manage these 4days.

Had all my meals and vitamins on time, 3 DCs (oh my!), 1 fruit and crackers taken..

Day 51, DV free.

Day 29: Cheesy Does Not Do It

I weighed in today and have dissapointing 1 wk loss so Im not gonna post it now, Im going to wait for the 31st to have a final weight loss figure.. :'(

Woke up today and felt like having a cheese meal. I thought, I should try this Philadelphia Fat Free cream cheese that had so eluded the market shelves of a lot of members in the forum. Plus, it is going to expire in mid April so why not.

I made the zucchini cheese fritatta's (cheese+veggies+crackers)and I couldnt say it was any special. It was too much cheese for me even thouh I exceeded the veggie allowance by 10gms! I seriously thought that the allowance will be the same if I had an egg. Deviation! uff!

Plus, it didnt make me full. I felt elck! queasy, too much cheese! 2 hours later, I was so  hungry and by hour 5 I was dizzy hungry!!

So no, no more cheese meals for me. :/

Today was hectic as usual:

laundry> met a friend who is going back to PH and gave stuff, got caught up in a lot of traffic> grocery> picked up foster cat who is having the flu> drop groceries home> took cat to the vet> suddenly I had an allergy that got my nosed stuffed> came home weighed my proteins, kept in freezer> slept for 2.5hrs!, felt weak and sick> had dinner, couldnt bring myself to make my meals for this week> by 10, dragged my ass to the kitchen and made 2 days worth of meals only> felt so tired> cleaned the litter boxes> washed> slept by 12!

The day was full and I wasnt feeling at my 100%. I didnt get to sweep/dust the house and my cat is shedding full time!!!! :( So cat hair is everywhere! Im picking balls of fur from every corner of the house.. I may have to get her fully shaved again.. hmmmm...

Day 29, not deviation free.. exceeded Meal 1 veggie allowance by 10gms.

Anyhoo....