Day 20: Intuition

Before I start with this topic, I just want to add that yesterday, somebody gave me a miniature tart. As you can see its so pretty (but not as tasty according to my bf :D) and I really really wanted to eat it in the office yesterday but I did not give in and brought it home.

I just hungry all day yesterday. I think my PMS has started coz I felt lower tummy pain just by sitting. Woke up this morning with the heaviest body ever! My joints hurt and I just feel like being pulled to the ground. I didn't want to get up, but I did, I still had to cook my meals. Since I was feeling so lazy, I sat outside, got some sunshine and decided to cook my lunch and have a yogurt and fruit for breakfast. I just couldn't be bothered.

Before leaving, I said I cant feel so down today, I don't want this feeling! Im doing so good at work and this really wouldn't help me. On the way to office, I listened to a discussion about Living an Intuitive Life by Sonia Choquette. It was insightful.

Some key takeaways:

1. Intuition is not mystical - its not your oohh e.s.p.-looking-into-the-future thing. Its listening to your gut, your heart.

2. To apply this at work, keep yourself informed  -learn, be on the look out on what's going on, do not work just merely to get by, understand the people around you without judging - because in the end, based on what you know or gather, you will tell yourself the answers you need based on the collective data that you have stored.

3. I really liked the part that said -> when you set goals, make sure your goals will benefit at least 2 people, as this opens yourself up to your intuition. That you are just not self-serving.

4. We all are vibrating with energy, and whatever you vibrate you attract - Ive been reading and hearing about this a lot, which I find to be true.

It was a lot of information on single drive, maybe I will write more in detail the next time. But I've resonated with most of the discussion. I feel like I have been out of touch with my intuition for so long. 

I wish I could have written about it in a way that is good but I guess is one of those days when you just feel "blah". I tried everything, I had my coffee, listen to some inspirational discussion, and listened to upbeat music.

Im still hungry, but not like the previous days.

Day 20: deviation free, 1 fruit under allowance, vits taken
Mood = meh
Hunger = manageable; but craving!

Day 19: Good news

I want a dog!!! :(

The fit of the work slacks I wore today was comfortable! Wooo-hoo!!! I wore this one 2 weeks ago and it was very snug, but today, it fit me very nicely :) Plus, these pants were from circa 2009!

Happy day.. I cant wait for more positive physical changes.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

In Cohen news, the scales moved in my favor this morning, to which I am glad. I hope this continues over the next 2 days so I can report an acceptable 10 day weight loss in spite of the deviation. I'm not expecting a 3kg loss, but maybe 2?

Got hungry before my next meal today. Hmm.. I was craving for pappa roti buns. I still stuck to my diet, I really cant wait to enter the 60's, because per experience, that's my happy weight :D

I was so hungry today!!!! :'(

Day 19: All meals taken on time, vitamins too. 1 fruit under allowance. Deviation free.
Mood = good
Hunger = yes, very much! :(

Day 14: Not hungry

Its a good thing right?

In terms of fruit allowance, Im eating under what is recommended, but the scales are not really being that friendly.. Slowwww losses. Thing is Im not really hungry, I didn't feel like having breakfast this morning and had it as late as I could-- 11. Just not hungry.

This plan is really not forgiving every time you don't follow it. You eat out of the plan, you suffer. You would think eating less will help you, you are mistaken.

But what to do?

In other news, bf planned something for anniversary tomorrow. I told him I will not eat out of plan and if he can ask wherever he has booked us to cook a Cohen friendly dinner for me, he said its totally not possible. I don't know what he has planned, but the effort of planning something secretive like this is well worth deviating for me. However, I still cant bring myself to accept that I will deviate. I do not want to. I worry about not being able to reign it in plus the delay on weight loss that it will come with it. Im actually ok to bring my packed dinner and eat there, but I guess that's out of the question. Let's see what happens tomorrow.

Came home late today. Went to a farewell get-together at an Irish pub. Didn't touch anything from there except diet Coke. It was so much fun. I would miss that ex-colleague of mine. I hope he does well back home in Ethiopia.

Day 14: Deviation free, 1 fruit and 1 cracker under, vitamins taken
Mood =  great and stress free
Hunger = 0.0

Day 54: Missing Madamme Period (TOM)

Ok, its been 10days delayed. I've read that TOM can go kaput on you once you are on CD coz of the sudden change in diet and hormones, but this quick? Ive only been 8weeks in the program. I have been feeling minor cramps for the past few days thought, but no sign of Madamme Period. :/



as much as i hate to admit it..

Albeit sleepless, I fixed myself to hide the late night I had yesterday. Put on good coverage for my under eye circles, fixed my hair neatly on a high ponytail, wore a chic all-black ensemble with pointy heels! and reached work on time. While everyone in the office were showing signs of not having a good hrs of sleep, I was looking "fresh" :D

I was in an upbeat mood too :) coz the pair of cigarette pants I was wearing was a bit loose on me already and I bought them 2wks ago! Feels good.. :)

I emailed my consultant yesterday coz I am having several issues that I need to answers to:

1) I am getting hungry pretty quickly after my meals. Most specially at night. Answers were:

"...dont have cheese and yogurt meals because its the least filling "

I answered back that I only have cheese and yogurt once a week and received this reply

"Please can you add an additional chromium supplement. Please avoid exercising at the moment. Please keep us posted on how you are feeling."

I am taking 2 multi-vitamins per day already, so decided not reply back to this one.

"...make sure Vit B6 intake is not more than 5mg"

Ok, I am always below this..

...do not exercise for now 

I havent gone for yoga for about a week now..

...if you feel too hungry and shaky please ADD to your daily program one fruit and 5 crackers for the next 10 days

When I read this, I was like wow! 1 more fruit and 5 more crackers!! Excellent! However, I have no intentions of doing this, just as a last resort. I didnt even ask if these will have an effect on weightloss coz I have no intention to try.

2) Missing Madamme Period

.. Weight changes (weight gain or weight loss) might temporarily affect the menstrual cycle; however, if the menstrual cycle is not normalized (after the re-feeding) we would suggest a gynecological checkup.

Too vague, but what to do?

3) Checked if Nabisco crackers were accepted to the program as I have read in the forum that these were delish

Saltine Crackers ? Nabisco are the most popular in the USA and the best part is that you can have two crackers for every one in your allowance.

Which btw I havent seen anywhere here.

4) Asked if they have a referral program as 2 of my friends had signed up because of me and 2 more are waiting if for feedback from them

We try to keep our costs as low as possible and therefore we do not have a referral program/promotion but we hope that it will encourage you even more to work hard and keep up the good work now that your friends are also eating healthy.

Yah right :/

I am also in the midst of experimenting with meals switching having meal 1 as the last one. here is what I observed:

After day 1 weigh in:

Meal 3 - > Meal 2 -> Meal 1- > crackers and fruits in between - >2 DCs: 200mg drop

After day 2 weigh in:  did not have meal 1 as the last meal but the 1st meal

Meal 1 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 2- > crackers and fruits in between - > 3 DCs: no movement

After day 3 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 1 fruit in between - > 3 DCs: 400mg drop

After day 4 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DC: 200mg drop

After day 5 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DCs: 200mg drop

With what I am seeing, the meal switching works and for me, just having 1 fruit a day instead of 2 makes me lose more than having 2 fruits a day. DCs and crackers doesnt seem to have an effect. I can try cutting back on crackers but I really dont want to, because they mix well with coffee or a DC :D and are easy to carry. The crackers really help me get to my next meal esp. when I am not busy.

Will continue on this experiment until month end.

I went home early today and just decided to relax at home = sat on the couch and watch tv, slept a bit earlier than usual.

All meals intact, vitamins,crackers and fruits taken on time.

Day 54, DV free.

Day 37: The Number 36

Woke up, gained 400gms. I know I said I wouldnt weigh myself daily but only after 10days, but couldnt help myself..

I almost deviated today, out of choice due to anger and frustration. I couldnt even begin to write it.. Its the fuckall of all news.. So I'd rather not get started and all the flying fucks and mother fuckers will trod on this entry..

Anyhow, I almost reached and took a handful of those Hershey's chocolate nuggets from my colleague who just came back from US and wanted to munch on each single one of them.. The chocolatey goodness..


But the only thing that stopped me is the number 36.

36 days of eating Cohen clean.

Do I just throw it all away? I know it will only add to the misery of the day. I know that at the first taste of that chocolate, I have disregarded my 36 days of hard work. No, not disregarded it BUT I would have set myself back 1 week- ON PURPOSE. Why would I do that?!

All meals taken on time. I forgot my multivitamins and note to self: never to forget again. As the hunger and cravings are evident without it. I had to stop myself from eating my crackers and my fruits, otherwise I will not have anything else except dinner in the evening..

Day 37, DV free.

Thats all. Thank you.

Day 2: Bring on the Hunger

And the rumblings begin.. :-O

I felt hungry almost instantly after each meal today. Previously, I have my first meal around 12noon (mostly biscuits and coffee) and I am fine. But today, after breakfast and upon reaching the office, I was already hungry. I waited after 2.5hrs fr my last meal before I had my crackers and coffee, but man, I was hungry! I kept myself busy so I can last til lunch at 2pm.

After lunch, I went down with my colleague for a break and after 30mins, I felt hungry. I cant be hungry so soon?? I think this is me craving for the taste of the food I used to eat. Anyhow, Im not giving in. I had my fruit allowance before 5pm.

I feel like my water intake requirement of 3liters is too less.. YES, less. By 6pm, Im sure I have reached the 3L mark. I feel like I have to cut down on my water intake. I checked this with my consultant today as Ive read that too much water can hinder
weight loss. How could it?! I think I average around 4 liters of water per day, excluding coffee.. hmmmm lets see what they will reply

I did Hatha yoga today, I was on empty stomach, which is fine with me. Im a big advocate of fasted training. I must say Im ok, I didnt find it that strenous.  Its more of deep stretchng which felt so good afterwards. I didn even sweat so much this time. Usually, after every workout, I end it with a 20min sauna session.  I went to the sauna after yoga but I didnt sweat as much as I used to, which was vey annoying for me.  Took a shower, changed and ate a fruit in the car and ate my last meal with a cracker by 9pm.

I am deviationn free today.. Yipeee! But, I received a reply this evening from the consultant that water is fine to a minimum of 2L per day and I should drink if Im thirsty AND sauna is not recommended.. ops.. :/

I am trying to correct my sleeping habits as well, so forced myself to bed by 11pm

Tomorrow is my official start date, hopefully tomorrow, I'll be much better with the hunger issue.

Good night :)