Week 6, 2021

I didnt weigh in this morning to check my week 6 losses because I know there will be none :/

Deviated on at least 3 meals last week and last night too.. Didnt eat fast food or chocolates but ate a lot of my crackers with that shrimp paste and garlic chilli oil and activia yogurt. Meal 3 of the day during those days were mostly not on the plan but were eggs or beef or both.

I guess its the TOM and i gave in to my cravings.

PS: I weighed the next day, up by 800 grams :/

Day 73: Time spent but not wasted

Or is it?

It’s been two weeks since I wrote and I think it has been almost a month that I’ve been struggling to be deviation free. There were days that I was good but yet I failed in the evenings and there were other days that I wasn’t on plan at all, whether it’s not eating at all then having whatever is available to totally eating out of plan.

Anyway, today marks the first day of being deviation free. I thought of continuing the number of days because this time I think I’m just going to go ahead with it, than “starting over” on e-paper (mind tricks eh?).

I mostly occupy my free time (morning and evening drives) listening to a book called the Values Factor by John Demartini. Very insightful, a lot of aha moments, and a lot of work in order to get your values and priorities sorted and aligned in all aspects. I’m just listening to it, I haven’t done all exercises, because this will need some time. It’s like a proper course! :D But given that I haven’t done any of the work yet, I have learned so much already.

I don’t know what else to say. I have wasted my time in terms of reaching goal, but not really much so. I had a life going on – meeting with friends, going out with my bf, networking. It’s not all bad. It is bad for Cohen goal but I have to see the positives of it than beating myself up over it. I’m tired of that.

Today wasn’t particularly easy, I was craving for chocolates like anything. I don’t understand it. I had to google why and it all has to do with the rewards mechanism that we have in our brains, as eating delicious chocolates that releases the happy hormone dopamine. I also found out that we didn’t have to learn to like chocolates, as soon as our brain recognizes the benefit, it acquires that automatically and the brain gets hardwired to it. Phew.

Next, I googled how to beat the chocolate cravings. Tons of advice – i.e. eat a healthy sweet like fruits, talk a walk and then see if you still want one, negotiate with yourself, have a few squares (hah! We all know how’s that going to go), switch to dark. Thing is, I know all of these, but I still have chocolates in my mind. I’m not craving for anything sweet, I am particularly looking for chocolates. I don’t know what kept me going, but I survived today.

I started with Pilates too. I had my first class yesterday (Reformer Core), I liked it. I was booked for the same today but I missed it as I have to work late, and I took the Pilates SQ, it’s a step higher than the basic one to which I did fairly well, the instructor said so, that for a beginner, I was good. I like Pilates. I 've always wanted to do it for as long as I can remember, the proper ones, but it was just way too expensive for me (it still is). I have 5 trial class which the cost works ok for me, that’s why I went for it.

Anyhoo, that’s all for now and tomorrow I will brave a reconciliation with Wilma (my online consultant).

Day 73: deviation free. 1 cracker under allowance. Vits taken, no DC

Mood = ok

Hunger = craving for chocolate, but not hungry for food.

Day 19: Good news

I want a dog!!! :(

The fit of the work slacks I wore today was comfortable! Wooo-hoo!!! I wore this one 2 weeks ago and it was very snug, but today, it fit me very nicely :) Plus, these pants were from circa 2009!

Happy day.. I cant wait for more positive physical changes.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

In Cohen news, the scales moved in my favor this morning, to which I am glad. I hope this continues over the next 2 days so I can report an acceptable 10 day weight loss in spite of the deviation. I'm not expecting a 3kg loss, but maybe 2?

Got hungry before my next meal today. Hmm.. I was craving for pappa roti buns. I still stuck to my diet, I really cant wait to enter the 60's, because per experience, that's my happy weight :D

I was so hungry today!!!! :'(

Day 19: All meals taken on time, vitamins too. 1 fruit under allowance. Deviation free.
Mood = good
Hunger = yes, very much! :(

Day 17: Getting on the bus

After my senna tea yesterday evening and several trips to the bathroom this morning (I think I have no intestines left), I weighed myself and I gained 900 gms. Guess that's fine.

Im still giddy about my weekend :)

And another week continues with this woman. I find it a little bit funny and annoying at the same time on how she gets worked up on things so early in the morning. I just don't really let it get to me.

I got hungry quite easily after each meal, close to craving but I stuck to my diet. It did help that I was really busy today.

Day 17: deviation free, 1 fruit under allowance, vits taken

Mood= ok

Hunger= yes, want more food!

Day 44 & 45: One of Them Days

"..that a girl goes through... dont take it personal.." :D

PMS surely kicking in.. Day 44 was ok, nothing much to report. I did hatha yoga with a colleague in the evening then went to watch an movie outdoors.. all meals taken on time.

Day 45 is totally different story.

I was feeling quite sluggish today. The usual slump when Im close to my periods, I am feeling tired as if I have been moving around and its just 10am! I am craving too, despite the morning multi-vitamin. I feel hungry right after the meal + cracker.

I had to let my foster cat go today. I love him to bits, but he doesnt let me sleep! I have isolated him in the kitchen as he had just recovered from the flu plus my cat doesnt get along with him yet.. When I am in the kitchen with him, he is so sweet, loving and purring non-stop. But as soon as I step out, its a crying madness!! for hours! And its been 3 wks like this, so I told the lady who rescued him of my situation and she offered to board him.. I feel so bad.. coz a) the lady will have to spend for boarding and 2) I will miss that naughty little bugger.. BUT I do need proper sleep too.. :'(



one of them coffee person..

Black coffee is my saviour. I normally take my coffee black anyway even before pre-cohen, with an occassional dash of milk and sugar when I feel like it.  Black coffee gives me the energy boost that I need, everytime. Its my version of Redbull..

So I sipped my coffee, silently, waiting for the energy rush to come.. Otherwise I just wanted to go home and rest or do nothing. The coffee did its job :) and everything seems bright and shiny after that :D

I had expressed my interest to be considered for a position that will open in one of the departments from our group of companies..  feedback was positive.. need to get cracking on adjusting my CV.

By noon I received feedback from the clinic about my 2nd blood test results. Feedback was good: 

Please be advised that Dr. Cohen was satisfied with your blood test results and instructed that you continue with your program.

Kindly let us know if you have any questions. 

Regards,

The Consultants Team

 Please note: No additional blood test is required, unless we specifically request it.

Im happy! ^_^

Picked up a friend from the airport. Im glad to have him back in the country with a new job!

Went home early and cooked my 4days meals.

Day 44 & 45, DV free..

Day 13: :D

wooo hooo hooo!

I dont know what to call my Day today but I do know I want to post another of Chandler's dance moves.. :D Im a huge fan of Friends and I still am.

This morning before going to work I was figuring out what to wear. Since I lost my initial 25kgs became a size 12, I took out my old skinny jeans (the skinniest Ive been) from storage back in the closet in the hopes of fitting into them soon. I remember I bought them when I was a size 8. And it has been sitting in my closet for more than 4mos now.. :/ It can fit but each leg will have to be forced in the thighs area.. and of course, no chance of even making the 2 ends meet to button up

So this morning, I  thought, what the hell, lets see.. And to my amazement, it fit with the button closed and zipped up. It was still tight esp in the waist area as I had a fat overlap there when squeezed by the belt line. But the fact of the matter is it closed!! I could have actually worn it today if I had worn a loose blouse, but decided not to, I will wait for next week!!

So far so good. Still DV free.. I had

BF: eggs +onion+cabbage +coriander +1 cracker
snack: apple & coffee
Lunch: beef stir fry + cabbage +cucumber+2 crackers
snack: tea
Dinner: a portion of tilapia and a portion of tuna in brine + veggies+ 2 crackers
evening snack: green apple

I have a hectic weekend and I need to shop for food supplies tomorrow.. Saturday is an all out day.. *fingers crossed*

I have to admit though, Im craving for sweets..cookies, chocos, ice cream.. But I can control it and hopefully all throughout. I have a deadline and I cant miss it..

TOM has made its appearance :S

Day 7 & 8: Weekend

Ellen's selfie that crashed Twitter :D

Day 7

Just home bumming around. I didnt do anything productive today. Feeling very lazy. First I had to wake up early to breakfast despite the 5hr sleep. Which is ok coz I slept again after 2 hrs. I decided to ditch the birthday party I was supposed to go to because I feel like I will succumb to food. I seriously miss the taste of junk food.

I should have kept myself busy. Normally, I would have ordered all the junk I can consume on a Friday....

I cleaned my house in the evening. Could have done it in the morning but I dont want to spend day time cleaning, since I didnt go out, I just watched the Oscars. Didnt go for yoga either. Its 1 wk before TOM, maybe thats why I was feeling anti social.

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Day 8:

I weighed this morning, and after 7days I lost 3.2kgs! Awesome right?? I know this is most probably water weight, but still it is a loss in weight. I do feel lighter due to the clean eating. I hope this keeps on going and reach at least a 10kg loss by end of Marh..

I had quite a few things to accomplish today. Had to go to the bank at the city center, went back to the other side of town to renew my annual rent contract, then drove 50kms to meet a friend for a mani-pedi, shopped for groceries, weighed and cooked my next meals, went for yoga in the evening, and met friends afterwards headed out for a nice 5km(!) stroll. The weather was just so pleasant, we didnt notice the time.

So this day was jam packed and awesome!  My day indoors yesterday was not so bad then, at least I was able to relax and do my chores. Today was a full day, ending at 1 am.

I found myself reaching for more DCs for the past 2 days in my attempt to curb my cravings.. PMSing I guess... I feel more and more tempted to reach for those chocos and chips... :/ whew.. i mean this is it.. this is the hurdle I was waiting for. I mentioned that I crossed my first few days with minor difficulty. By now I should be over those cravings, but Im not.

I did deviate today, but unitentionally. I had an extra cracker for dinner. I totally forgot that the chicken meal I prepared in advance, was 'crackered' in my attempt for breaded chicken breast. i only realized after I finished my meal.

If I werent on Cohen's, I would think, this is crazy, how can 1 cracker be such a no-no?? Eh..

I have failed so many times in losing weight and I told my mom this time that I am dieting. She didnt even bat an eyelash. I know she must be thinking "here she goes again".. I felt that she really doesnt believe that I can  and will do this, eventhough I told her about my weightloss so far. Maybe I have kept disappointing her that she stopped believing. She didnt say anything negative, she just said "good, I really hope you keep it up this time" :/ Made me more determined to show her and the rest of them that I can succeed!