5th Day: Vanity

Today's much better. Felt sharper. I guess the sleep helped. I was dozing off aroubd 9:30 yesterday which was 30mins after my dinner. I tried to stay up at least until 10:30.

Woke up this morning and couldnt help but weigh myself. Dayumm.. im down 4kgs already! I guess my old plan still works, or could also be i just finished TOM. Lets see in a few days if I keep dropping.

I am not feeling strong at all. Im watching tv and its a wedding scene and all i cant think about is eating cake! :'( The only thing thats stopping me are the thoughts in my head. As vain as it seems Im still on the "getting thinner" mindset. Healthy, yes, but more on the looking good part. Shame eh? But as long as it works and keeps me OP.

BF: egg, veggies, crackers Centrum

LU: chicken, veggies, cracker, coke light

SN: apple

DI: beef, veggies, cracker, coke light

CAF: 1 black coffee

VIT: collagen 1&3n, hyaluronic, collagen 2

Day 5 - deviation free

3rd day: The Scale - A Friend or Foe??

The thing about this diet is that you have to measure every. single. thing. every. single. day. Even yourself. The center doesnt recommend weighing yourself daily, but it kinda does wonders to your persistence when you see yourself dropping off each gram daily. But when its stuck, well.. it kinda gets to you too.

I didnt weigh myself on day 1 but I do have an idea of my starting weight as I went to the clinic a few days before to get my prescription and they weighed me. I was at 89kgs! 😢 Seems like I went back to the same person I was in 2009 - really fat, in heavy debt and in a job with a take home pay similar to what I was earning in 2010. Anyway, this morning I was at 86.9 kgs. I would like to think that the 2 kgs lost in 2 days was because of being Cohen clean.

When I decided to do this 4 days ago, I dropped my food scale.. glass top shattered like candy. I tried weighing the contents of a bottle of water and coke and seems to be working alright. I think I should replace it, but dont want to spend unnecessarily. And as veteran Cohenite, we are very.. ahem.. "anal" about the food measurements. Not a single gram above or below, otherwise its a deviation! f

But honestly, what if you didnt know that the scale is off? And you are still losing weight? then does it really matter if the scale is of by 2-3 grams? I hear Cohenites in my head screaming "yes!!" 😄  I figured I will try this broken scale for about 7 days and see if my weight will drop every day like its supposed to. If not, maybe I need to buy a new one.

Anyway, I woke up a bit late but I managed to cook my breakfast and lunch. Got to eat my breakfast around 10, lunch was at 3. By 6 I was hungry! hmmm.. so here we go eh? I feel that its better that I eat breakfast at home otherwise I will be eating late like today.

The moment I felt the hunger, I thought of breaking down. I kept on thinking of how I see myself by March and how much weight I must have lost by then. Or of people in the office complimenting on my new clothes to which I will reply, "no, these are my old clothes." :D. I just kept myself daydreaming whilst I was driving home so I dont think of my hunger and it worked! I survived the hunger pang. 

Nothing really special today. I can feel the looming headache slightly.

BF: 1 egg,  veggies, 1 cracker, 1 Centrum

LU: chicken, veggies, 1 cracker, 1 Centrum

SN: Noon: 1 peach | afternoon: 1 coke light | night: 1 peach

DI: beef, veggies w balsamic, 1 cracker, 1 coke light

CAF: 1 cup, black

VIT: AM - Collagen 1, 3 +C, Hyaluronic, PM - Collagen 2

Day 22: Salami Backed & Road Rage

Warning: a lot of profanity in this post

Weighed in this morning, and lost 2.1kgs. Now thats a total of 7.3kgs! :)

Saturday is becoming a day of chores for me uff-- laundry, folding clothes, house cleaning, groceries, and cooking my 5days worth of meals, which usually ends at 1am.



Salami Back
looks painful, doesnt it? :)

In my attempt to de-stress, I went for a cupping massage. Turns out, I am really stressed out and lots of toxins in my body.. It was lovely. Their massage therapists are the best of what I have tried so far.

After getting relaxed, I drove home and encountered some traffic, which I tried hard not to bother me. I went to shop for groceries, which took me less than an hour, coz now I mostly stay in almost 1 section of the huge supermarket (well except for the cat food section which was almost on the other end of the store).

Picked up my foster cat, my naughty boy Henry, who, according to the lady who took him for adoption day, got a lot of interest but was unfortunately not adopted.

All was fine, until I became a victim of road rage. A guy was trying to cut in front of me after queueing in the long line of cars, and he had the nerve to shout at me and call the police at me saying Im not giving way. I lost my nerve and shouted back! Like if I can swear in this
country without getting prosecuted I would have done so already. I took his picture that he was trying to cut in front of me as a proof to the police if ever he files a complaint, but he in turn took my cars picture and my picture, I was soooo fucking mad!!!!!!!! I got so stressed that I felt some acidity in my tummy..

I tried to let it go during the rest of the night, by going on with my routine and cooking but I still get stressed about it. I wasnt wrong in the first place and that asshole had the nerve to call the police on me?? mother fucker!!!!

I tried the breathing technique, didnt work. I just want to let this go.. But everytime I remember it, I get worked up, and I feel that acidity in my tummy...

Other than that, my meals were on as planned, today was a beef day, and quite delcious in fact. I had everything- meals, vitamins, crispbreads, fruits, and a 500ml DC.

DV free!

Day 15: Day Just at Home

I weighed this morning and I lost 2kgs!! Thats a total of 5.2kgs in 14days! :) i was hoping for 3kgs as well, but I will settle for 2.. at least it is now below 2...

This day way planned to be a total adventure, but due to crazy weather, me and my friends were sick in one way other.

Day started with a nice brekky. I bought this food chopper from IKEA yesterday which I absolutely love! It is smal though so I have to chop my veggies in portions but thats ok.. I had eggs with finely chopped mushrooms, onion and capsicum.

The lady who rescued henry came in for some professional photos.. And boy, was he difficult! It took us over an hour to get a few shot, and not the ones the lady was hoping for.. it was tiring.. I had to order biscuits and an orange juice for the lady and she didnt have the biscuits.. I am so tempted to have one...

I had garlic tilapia fillet bits and prawns for lunch with cabbage, mushrooms, capsicum, corriander.. had a mango on the side.. It was yummy..

I did my laundry and was too  lazy to prepare my food for the week, plus I have to buy my crispbread. I am totally out..

TOM is definitely here..

I havent done any workout this week after that pump and combat session... was too busy.. :)

Day 7 & 8: Weekend

Ellen's selfie that crashed Twitter :D

Day 7

Just home bumming around. I didnt do anything productive today. Feeling very lazy. First I had to wake up early to breakfast despite the 5hr sleep. Which is ok coz I slept again after 2 hrs. I decided to ditch the birthday party I was supposed to go to because I feel like I will succumb to food. I seriously miss the taste of junk food.

I should have kept myself busy. Normally, I would have ordered all the junk I can consume on a Friday....

I cleaned my house in the evening. Could have done it in the morning but I dont want to spend day time cleaning, since I didnt go out, I just watched the Oscars. Didnt go for yoga either. Its 1 wk before TOM, maybe thats why I was feeling anti social.

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Day 8:

I weighed this morning, and after 7days I lost 3.2kgs! Awesome right?? I know this is most probably water weight, but still it is a loss in weight. I do feel lighter due to the clean eating. I hope this keeps on going and reach at least a 10kg loss by end of Marh..

I had quite a few things to accomplish today. Had to go to the bank at the city center, went back to the other side of town to renew my annual rent contract, then drove 50kms to meet a friend for a mani-pedi, shopped for groceries, weighed and cooked my next meals, went for yoga in the evening, and met friends afterwards headed out for a nice 5km(!) stroll. The weather was just so pleasant, we didnt notice the time.

So this day was jam packed and awesome!  My day indoors yesterday was not so bad then, at least I was able to relax and do my chores. Today was a full day, ending at 1 am.

I found myself reaching for more DCs for the past 2 days in my attempt to curb my cravings.. PMSing I guess... I feel more and more tempted to reach for those chocos and chips... :/ whew.. i mean this is it.. this is the hurdle I was waiting for. I mentioned that I crossed my first few days with minor difficulty. By now I should be over those cravings, but Im not.

I did deviate today, but unitentionally. I had an extra cracker for dinner. I totally forgot that the chicken meal I prepared in advance, was 'crackered' in my attempt for breaded chicken breast. i only realized after I finished my meal.

If I werent on Cohen's, I would think, this is crazy, how can 1 cracker be such a no-no?? Eh..

I have failed so many times in losing weight and I told my mom this time that I am dieting. She didnt even bat an eyelash. I know she must be thinking "here she goes again".. I felt that she really doesnt believe that I can  and will do this, eventhough I told her about my weightloss so far. Maybe I have kept disappointing her that she stopped believing. She didnt say anything negative, she just said "good, I really hope you keep it up this time" :/ Made me more determined to show her and the rest of them that I can succeed!