Day 63-64: Binge cum Experiment

 

You may frown on it, diss it, call me stupid, but somehow, I tried to make the 2 binge days a positive by trying to learn from it.

I classify these 2 days as learning from my own mistakes.. first hand..

Ive been reading it on the other diaries and I did take heed and followed them to the T. 61 days of being deviation free.. But I always believe that each person NEEDS to make their own mistakes and learn from them. Telling them really doesnt cut it. The lesson is learned but not ingrained.

None of these non-CD foods were offered to me nor did they serve as temptations around me that I have given in to. I have intentionally chosen each of these food to deviate from the program.

So here goes..

Day 63: Unplanned Experiment Day

Findings:

1) Provita Wholewheat Crispbreads --- brings on an uncontrollable binge desire.. --> try again to prove whether or not it brings the binge desire out (it tastes better than Ryvita!)

2) Chocolates - capacity has reduced --> Good but needs to improve, find a way to eliminate OR find a fail-safe way of slowly eliminating from system

Despite sleeping at 5am, I woke up at 12, prepared my breakfast and ate by 12:30, with the intention of putting my Provita Whole Wheat Crispbread indulgence away forever! I brought my foster cat to the lady who brings him for adoption days and came back home and chilled..

3pm: feeling hungry.. ate 2 crispbreads

3:30: still feeling hungry.. control.. focus, you can eat a fruit after an hour

4pm: had 1 peach..

4:30: antsy.. I want those crispbreads and mayo sooooo bad.. watched tv..

5PM: cooked my lunch.. nibbled on 1 crispbread.

5:30: Had my lunch.. went back to the kitchen, picked the whole pack and mayo.. and started dunking these crispbreads and hogged from here..

6pm: Satisfied and full..

7pm: feeling curious... what would I feel if I eat chocolates the way I did--> 3 kinder bueno bars (3 x 4sticks= 12 sticks) in one sitting..

Honestly people, I could have not had ordered this.. I've been pretty honest with my entries and I was ok at this point to forgo this..

But as my username suggests, Risque... I wanted to see how I will react to this.. What will happen to me? I know its counter intuitive, but whatever..lets see..

Ordered the kinder buenos, and ate them in one sitting. By the time I was done with the 8sticks.. I was feeling stuffed already.. my throat had started to ache a bit.. BUT I still ate the last four..

8pm: observing what I was feeling after the choco binge:

1) throat a bit hurting.. tongue too
2) queasy
3) but ok..

9:30pm: I ordered the following salty junk:

1 cheetos cheese BIG pack
1 original pringles SMALL
1 kitkat 4 fingers
1 diet coke

I FINISHED ALL OF THESE while watching 3 episodes of Greys Anatomy.. what I felt:

- dizzy
- stomach cramps
- gassy

No dinner, was too stuffed. I slept at 3am.. I couldnt sleep with the tummy full..

Day 63, not DV free..
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Day 64: Come as it may Experiment Day

Woke up: +1kg

The experiment continues..

Findings:

1) Provita Wholewheat Crispbreads --- definitely brings on an uncontrollable binge desire.. --> AVOID!! switch back to ryvita and finn crisp

2) Stomach food capacity had shrunk ---Although I can still eat the way I used too, I know the point on when I should stop.---> Good

3) Chocolate appetite --- not the same. the chocolates dont bring in that 'orgasmic' satisfaction, from any type of chocolate ---> Great. Do not even think of starting to develop the gusto for it after refeed..

4) Self control --- good but still dodgy--> better reign it in NOW


09am: CD breakfast

10am: shopping-- well initially for groceries but ended up shopping for bra's, shoes and clothes.. there goes my money for my new TV!! :D

2pm: 1 peach

2:30pm: 2 Provita Whole Wheat Crispbreads, prepared my CD lunch, had my lunch by 3

3:30pm: was feeling hungry, had 1 mango

4:00pm: antsy, I want those crispbreads so bad!!

4:30pm: found myself dunking those crispbreads into that mayo..half the pack.. done!

5:00pm: found myself eating the rest of the pack and dunking it into greek yogurt

6:00pm: self loathing, went to the small grocery down my building, to buy corriander leaves, but ended up buying these as well:

- kitkat 4 fingers - dark
- kitkat 4 fingers - orig
- cadbury hazelnut
- kinder bueno bar
- snickers bar
- qanta almond ice cream stick x 2

06-09pm: BINGE galore.. I am not proud.. I was so stuffed.. started with the 2 ice cream sticks and
I had a bite of each one.. and eventualy finished everything except the kinder bueno. I really couldnt.

10pm: cooked my meals for the next 2 days..

10:30pm: ordered Nando's peri peri chicken (1/2 chicken) +1 portuguese bread roll

11:30pm: ate my chicken with gusto in front of the TV while watching Eat.. Pray.. Love..

I felt sick and full that I slept at 3am..

Why did I do this? All CD veterans will not agree with me on this. I will admit, I gave in to the temptation. But I SERIOUSLY could have said NO and stop myself. Seriously, I could.

My kung-fu is strong :P

Not all of you will believe that one, I do doubt it too, a bit. But at that moment when I was buying those goodies, I did hesitate, I did put it down. But I thought, this is my chance to fully see what this mistake will bring me. Call it a controlled experiment.. but that what was going on inside my head.

NOW LETS PUT THIS ALL BEHIND. I AM DONE.

Day 64, not DV free..

Day 54: Missing Madamme Period (TOM)

Ok, its been 10days delayed. I've read that TOM can go kaput on you once you are on CD coz of the sudden change in diet and hormones, but this quick? Ive only been 8weeks in the program. I have been feeling minor cramps for the past few days thought, but no sign of Madamme Period. :/



as much as i hate to admit it..

Albeit sleepless, I fixed myself to hide the late night I had yesterday. Put on good coverage for my under eye circles, fixed my hair neatly on a high ponytail, wore a chic all-black ensemble with pointy heels! and reached work on time. While everyone in the office were showing signs of not having a good hrs of sleep, I was looking "fresh" :D

I was in an upbeat mood too :) coz the pair of cigarette pants I was wearing was a bit loose on me already and I bought them 2wks ago! Feels good.. :)

I emailed my consultant yesterday coz I am having several issues that I need to answers to:

1) I am getting hungry pretty quickly after my meals. Most specially at night. Answers were:

"...dont have cheese and yogurt meals because its the least filling "

I answered back that I only have cheese and yogurt once a week and received this reply

"Please can you add an additional chromium supplement. Please avoid exercising at the moment. Please keep us posted on how you are feeling."

I am taking 2 multi-vitamins per day already, so decided not reply back to this one.

"...make sure Vit B6 intake is not more than 5mg"

Ok, I am always below this..

...do not exercise for now 

I havent gone for yoga for about a week now..

...if you feel too hungry and shaky please ADD to your daily program one fruit and 5 crackers for the next 10 days

When I read this, I was like wow! 1 more fruit and 5 more crackers!! Excellent! However, I have no intentions of doing this, just as a last resort. I didnt even ask if these will have an effect on weightloss coz I have no intention to try.

2) Missing Madamme Period

.. Weight changes (weight gain or weight loss) might temporarily affect the menstrual cycle; however, if the menstrual cycle is not normalized (after the re-feeding) we would suggest a gynecological checkup.

Too vague, but what to do?

3) Checked if Nabisco crackers were accepted to the program as I have read in the forum that these were delish

Saltine Crackers ? Nabisco are the most popular in the USA and the best part is that you can have two crackers for every one in your allowance.

Which btw I havent seen anywhere here.

4) Asked if they have a referral program as 2 of my friends had signed up because of me and 2 more are waiting if for feedback from them

We try to keep our costs as low as possible and therefore we do not have a referral program/promotion but we hope that it will encourage you even more to work hard and keep up the good work now that your friends are also eating healthy.

Yah right :/

I am also in the midst of experimenting with meals switching having meal 1 as the last one. here is what I observed:

After day 1 weigh in:

Meal 3 - > Meal 2 -> Meal 1- > crackers and fruits in between - >2 DCs: 200mg drop

After day 2 weigh in:  did not have meal 1 as the last meal but the 1st meal

Meal 1 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 2- > crackers and fruits in between - > 3 DCs: no movement

After day 3 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 1 fruit in between - > 3 DCs: 400mg drop

After day 4 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DC: 200mg drop

After day 5 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DCs: 200mg drop

With what I am seeing, the meal switching works and for me, just having 1 fruit a day instead of 2 makes me lose more than having 2 fruits a day. DCs and crackers doesnt seem to have an effect. I can try cutting back on crackers but I really dont want to, because they mix well with coffee or a DC :D and are easy to carry. The crackers really help me get to my next meal esp. when I am not busy.

Will continue on this experiment until month end.

I went home early today and just decided to relax at home = sat on the couch and watch tv, slept a bit earlier than usual.

All meals intact, vitamins,crackers and fruits taken on time.

Day 54, DV free.