Day 40-41: Stressed

I feel really stressed for the past few days, I can feel it in my gut. Acidic. Or am I having too much coffee? I only have 1 really black coffee in a day on an empty stomach. I used to drink more.

 

The work load is coming, and I am foreseeing that I will soon feel that I'm not being paid enough for this. I have no problem with the workload, its fine, but the people, so toxic, not only my temp boss, but from others as well. I guess they are stressed too.

 

I need to find a way to relax myself. I want to stay positive and optimistic. I want these qualities to prevail over others. I don't want to be one of those people who are stressed, overworked and becomes a bitch. Because it tires you out. I feel tired after being angry or mean at people on a continuous basis.

 

Is this why the scale is not moving? Nah. Its been 2 weeks since Im in the 71kg area. I already asked my consultant about this. Im really getting fed up.

 

I cant wait for the long weekend. I want to switch off or just be at home and be quiet and maybe meet with a few friends on one of those days. But for my benefit, I will also try to work so that Im not left behind nor bogged down with emails when we are all back. These people work non-stop.

Other than that, same old same old. Same food, same routine, same thing about no movement in the scales. Im tired of it. Woke up this morning not wanting to weigh anymore because I keep seeing the same frustrating number.

Not going to check the scales anymore.

Day 40-41: deviation free, all allowances taken, vits too.
Mood = im ok, just workload makes me moody
Hunger = none.

 

Day 25: Still suffering

Im writing this so that everyone who ever reads this blog would know:

DEVIATIONS FOR WHATEVER REASON,

WILL COST YOU.

 

DELAY. FRUSTRATION. DISBELIEF.

 

 

I hope its just my upcoming TOM that's causing the freak that's happening every morning as I step on the scale and the combined restless nights (cant sleep properly). This is getting really annoying. Its like, you work hard, be good, and don't see the effect that you expect. Just 1 major slip...

 

So to all the Cohenites out there, be warned. No, really. Its not like the "I know someone who knows someone who experienced this.." that the actual story gets misconstrued. This is for REAL. THE STRUGGLE IS REAL. When Dr. Cohen said that a deviation will cost you a week, that is not an empty threat.

 

Consider this my gift to you.

 

I may say that I have accepted the consequence but it is a bitter pill to swallow, and yet Im still not sorry. I just wish my body will cooperate soon!!!!!

 

Day 25: deviation free, meals taken on time, 1 fruit under allowace. vitamins too

Mood = tame (tamer than yesterday! :D)

Hunger = none. Cravings, yes