DDay 6: Too Busy.. Is there such a thing?

Back to work.

Slept late last night, so I woke up late as well. I just had a yogurt and fruit for breakfast then cooked and packed my lunch..

I must admit, this diet really works. In a span of 5-6 days, the bloat on my face and tummy has somehow diminished.. It just really works. It makes you think:

why dont you just follow it??

Is it not worth it??

Why do you have to give in to the junk, which you already know does nothing good for you but instant gratification??

Was that instant gratification worth it??

Anyhoo, our office is still up to its abundant self. I came in this morning, went to the pantry for my usual black coffee and there it was-- a huge arrangement of arabic sweets from a colleague available to everyone for the taking, no reason.. no occassion.

Glad that I dont eat arabic sweets. Hmmmm...

I didnt cook my dinner for today as I woke up so late this morning. And by evening, I got so caught up with errands + the dentist visit that it was already 9pm and I havent eaten my dinner. I was so so so hungry to the point of dizzy.

I tried to wait it out, but was kind of impossible to reach home by 9:30. I already had a yogurt for breakfast, so that was not an option. Fruit and crackers allowances are consumed.

By 09:30, I caved. I ate the crackers, half a pack of it to be exact.

When I reached home by 10:30, I searched the forum about skipping meals. I really didnt feel like eating dinner. I just wanted to sleep. All the post about it had a big message of DO NOT SKIP MEALS! Hmm.. I was full from the crackers and I wanted to sleep. So I went to the kitchen and started measuring.

But I stopped. I was not hungry. Why do I have to eat when Im not hungry?

I know that was not so Coheny- Zonious move that I just made, but fact is, Im not hungry. So I kept what I have measured for the next day and went to bed by 12 after winding down in front of the telly.

Brekkie and lunch taken on time, vitamins, fruits and crackers too. 1 DC

Note to self: "ALWAYS have your meals with you. ALWAYS."

DDay 6: NOT DV free.

DDay 5: Still Hungry

I took an off from work today. Feels good not to be working on a working day :p

Woke up early and spent 3 hours in the garden just soaking up some morning sun and light breeze..

Had my omelette breakfast but it didnt suffice. I felt hungry 1 hour later.. even with the multivitamin..

Im out of crackers..

All I can think about were McDonalds pepper chicken wings..

Went for groceries for more stuff..5 days on the plan.. couldnt break this now. I wanted to pass on the Provitas because from experience, it starts the deviation for me. As much as I wanted to avoid it, i was so hungry and was that close to deviating. I was at the supermarket for chrissakes!! Fruit allowance was over by lunch and my only salvation until i can have my dinner are those damn crackers!! Gave in to provitas.. had 2 pcs within allowance. Im glad to have the rest of my cracker allowance later on the day.

Also had a massage today.. long overdue.. then went to a friends place to finalize our trip 's itinerary.

All in all, its one of those days when you just have to move with the motions.. it could have been better..

All meals take on time, fruits and vitamins too. 2 DCs

DDay 5: DV free.

DDay 1-4: ENOOOOUGHHH!!

Ugh!! Im sick of having to repeat day 1 over and over again, its embarrasing! I really hate this.. and I have so many excuses.. World Cup, Iftars, birthdays, going away parties, dates(!), I will start tomorrow.. its endless!

Needless to say, I feel like I have regained everything that I lost. I am scared to step on that scale. For now I am just thinking of getting back to routine. Whatever I weigh at the end of the month, if I do this right, couldnt be so bad, and I will be happy with it.

One day at a time...

Lets roll...

DDay 1 (20th Aug): Looking Good

This day started like any other day. I started it with the intention of being CD clean.

Had yogurt and peach for breakfast. Done.

Day went by until lunch. Ate my chicken with veggie lunch..

Afternoon went by without difficulty. I was like, hey.. i can do this.. let me shop for groceries later..

I wanted to keep the feeling.. and follow through..

I had a plan to meet my friends after work tomorrow and head straight to my "bf" 's house for the weekend (oh yes.. i do have 1 now.. so odd how it happened) 

And there is no way for me to follow through but to prepare 4 days worth of meals.. pack up.. freeze them and just carry it with me and to hell what they would say..

and i did just that. I cooked meals(even breakfast) for 4 days!

Dinner was cauli garlic fried rice with minced beef.. YUMMY!

All meals CD clean, taken on time. Vitamins and cracker allowance too..1 DC

DDay 1: DV free.

Dear God help me!

DDay 2: Ready

This was how I felt this day - Ready. Ready to take on the CD.. ready to take on the weekend... ready and cant wait to be healthy and drop the weight I've gained back..

It was a normal day in the office. Normal hustle and bustle..

There was a birthday celebration in the office. 2 huge honey cakes. I didnt have any.

Met my friends at 8pm for a mani pedi.. had my dinner once they finished with my hands :D after the session, i drove straight to the middleof the desert to join le bf and ze boys for some braai.

Yes, braai.

Surprisingly with all the meat and biltongs... i did not cave in. Just had my last fruit allowance for the day.

Placed my food for the next 3 days in his fridge. Crackers on standby.

Yes, Im ready.

All meals taken on time. 1 vitamin, 1 DC, all crackers within allowance.

DDay 2: DV free.

DDay 3: Stronger than I thought

Woke up around 830 and went outside where we had the braai.. and i love the change of scenery! Trees.. grass.. capt jack the dog.. fresh air.. a bit humid.. but its alright.. 

Made myself a cuppa black.. took my sunnies.. sat on those chairs.. and chilled talking with the boys..

Btw the bf and friends live in the same compound. And they despise veggies! They call it goat food. :D so they made fun of my egg omelette with finely chopped cabbage, mushrooms, onion and tomato.. they looked at me as if im a weirdo. In my head, go make fun of me all you want.. I dont care.. lets see who will have the last laugh! 

By 930, it become quite hot to sit outside so went back in, showered, watched tv and napped.

Went for movies today.. i thought i was only going to be faced by the popcorn temptation.. but hell no..

We watched Hercules AND Lucy. While watching Hercules.. the bf had 1 caramel popcorn and 1 orange and grape slush..and I had 1 DC. The smell of popcorn... daym!!

I ate my lunch during the movie.

Before watching Lucy, he bought another slush AND NUTELLA CREPE. Holy crepe!!! I almost caved!!! Wtf!!!! He knows im doing this, so he is not going to let me have it and of course I cant make him not eat what he wants in front of me as this is my choice.. but mannnnnnnnn..... almost caved..

after 2 movies.. i was triumphant!

We reached home. His flatmate was home. Kept munching on Godiva chocolates.. kept offering me too.. I kept saying "No. Thank you." REPEATEDLY. Oh.. do not underestimate the power of this phrase.

I am certainly craving by evening. For ice cream!! Bf kept saying "No. You will not."

Flatmate saying.. "you passed the junk test in the cinema..do not fail."

Gritted my teeth and ate my dinner. 1 hr later.. ate my last fruit for the day.

All meals taken on time. All within allowance. 2 DCs. No vitamins though.

DDay 3: DV free.

DDay 4: Bring on the Hunger

Day started fine. Woke up by 7 as I slept by 9pm! Cant remember when was the last time I slept so early and had straight sleep. 

Bfs work starts early at 6..so he was out and I spent the morni g sitting in the garden sipping my black cuppa... and capt jack kept me company.. sweet dog.. it was windy today so I stayed there until 930.. had breakfast there. I chatted with the flatmate's gf who was in Tanzania.. i was feeling bored :/

Bf kept popping by though.. once at 8, then 9. He had to do extra work til 10..a new drone came so he  had to check it out.

Today was a chilled out day. Just watched tv.. napped.. since i wasnt doing much.. i felt hungry quickly. I had 1 fruit and 2 crackers before 12noon! My food rationing today was not good. I know i will be rrally hungry by dinner...

i was craving big time! For anything! I am so close to caving in. Flatmate prepared cheese, capers on top of salted crackers! Huwaaahhhhh! I wanted to have even that!! 

But I didnt. Just chugged my DC.

Had my lunch exactly at the 5hr mark. It was tasty btw. I seasoned my tilapia fillet with dried rosemary,thyme, bit of salt, and lotsa pepper.. Stir fried it with boiled cabbage, baby asparagus, mushrooms, green pepper, garlic and tomatoes.. topped it of with an almost ripe mango (1 cheek) YUMMY!!!!!

Watched rugby with the bf. Im starting to enjoy this game :D napped afterwards.. then he had to work again from 4-8.

Was getting antsy. There is a bottle of nutella in the fridge..

by 6, i finished my cracker allowance. All i have left was my dinner

The flatmate came home with his shawarma and curly fries!!! My lord!!! Huhuhuhu i so want those curly fries. I opened another DC.

Had dinner at 8.

All meals taken on time. No multivitamins. Fruits and crackers within allowance. 2 DCs

DDay 4: DV free.

BDay 8-9: Easing in

BDay 8

So I failed to be DV free yesterday.

But, I honestly feel loads better today.. I feel like my face is less bloated.. My colds had somewhat turned down a notch, I feel lighter also.. Im stressing on the word 'feel' coz my tummy is protruding.. its depressing..

Anyway.. another day..

Reached home, ate 1 packet of provitas (!!) but CHOCOLATE AND JUNK FREE TODAY!! whooopeee!!

Ate CD breakfast and lunch, no dinner (fell asleep from 7pm), 2 DCs.

BDay 8, not DV free.



ohhhmm nommm nomm nommm

BDay 9
I am amazed on how sugar affects the body.. For the past weeks that I have been bingeing on chocolates (big time), each day/ next morning, I always felt bloated esp. my face., my overall mood is that of sad or off, I've had consistent colds, and my weight had shot up like anything.

But in just 2 days of reducing my sugar intake significantly (BDay 7- had 1 bar of chocolate, and BDay 8 - no chocolates at all), I felt totally different - the bloatedness [feeling] in my face is totally gone (not in my tummy though :( ), and I really felt loads better mood-wise..

Despite the odd sleep time I had yesterday (slept early, woke up at 12mn, couldnt sleep til 4am), I am upbeat and chirpy :D today and all I can think of is that from today onwards, I can do this.. I can do the CD clean path (Or so I thought)

Breakfast and lunch taken today.. lunch was late.. woke up late due to the Germany -  Brazil match.. BTW, what was that all about??? Brazil was humiliated in their own territority! yikes! 

Binged on Provitas again! :(

had 2 full pakistani mangoes.. yummmm

didnt have dinner.. fell asleep around 7.. woke up now (10:45) completed this entry bec I would.like to sleep.again...if I cook.. i will lose my sleep..

BDay 9, not DV free..

BDay 7: Scary Day

Why?

For the so many attempts of going back on plan, I usually give in on the 2nd day..  :/

Nothing special today, went to work, switching between working and reading on the forum.. Being active there really helps a lot in keeping yourself in check and more confident on being Cohen clean..

How did I feel today? I am detoxing.. Kinda hazy, having the sniffles, light headache, and craving like anything!

Bought myself some tilapia fillets, I havent had fish for some time.. My recipes are the same thing everyday.. I mean how can I spruce up my dishes when I AM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ANY HOT SPICES!!!! ( Im still not over this?!) so its basically salt and pepper for me.. no paprika.. no cayenne.. grrrrrr..

Oh, and I booked my car on the weekend. Im getting a red Nissan Juke S. The car will be available by 25th. I hated this car the first time I saw it, but in every occassion that I see it on the road, there were times that I really find it cute and then on the other times, ugly.. Im confused if I like the look of this car or not. :D and thats why I went for it. Weird huh?

Interior, its like the same as a Tiida or a Yaris, Ive read the VW Golf is bigger inside. I used to have a Dodge Charger, and I am a sucker for muscle cars, spacious ones at that. But due to Dubai not getting any cheaper and salary not getting any better, I had to find ways to economize. The time I had the Charger for 4 years, I mostly drove it alone, or with 1 passenger in the front, so I didnt really get to maximize the 'big car'. So Im ok with the cabin space of the Juke. If I will have taller passengers, maybe above 5'9", headroom might be a problem :D as the Juke is sloping towards the rear.

I actually liked the boot of this car, coz there is a covered space where in a 'tray' can be used for storage and can be lifted to reveal the spare wheel storage.. I got kinda excited with this hidden tray to be honest coz who doesnt like to hide their mess?? :D Im thinking my stock of shoes can now be hidden out of plain sight :D I do tend to pile up shoes in the car coz I dont wear them from my home - parking - home.. I park my car in a sandy area at home so wearing slippers is the best way for me..

 

I got a good Ramadan deal with Nissan too- 2yrs service contract or 30k kms, 5year warranty, free 1 year insurance, and 4months deferred payment if I take my loan from a certain bank..

 

Im still reading other reviews, and almost all of the reviews are torn between hating and loving the look of this car.. :D

 

I would have wanted to get the Juke Turbo basic.. I test drove that one and I loved it, but they said its not going to be availabe until Sept and that too not confirmed. And since im economizing, I am telling myself to be ok to go for the non-turbo one.. and maybe get the BHP adjusted to 139 (from 117). That may give me some kick.. some.. not a lot :D

 

Enough of the car talk..

 

I binged on Provitas in the evening + 1 chocolate bar.. well its an improvement.. at least I did not eat 8 chocolate bars today :/

 

All meals and vitamins taken on time.. All cracker and fruit allowance consumed.. 1 DC

 

BDay 7, DV not free!!