Day 58: PANIC MODE!!!

Didnt wake up well today. Somehow, despite the busy day yesterday, I couldnt sleep.

I am going to be super busy for the next 2months, with so many hosted events coming up- Maifest, Staff Day, Annual Gala Dinner, Conference Trip, Trip to France, Trip back home.

How to survive all these, DV free?!?!? Its time for solutions listing:

Staff Day followed by Staff dinner: 03May

4D Movies --- skip the popcorn, stick with DC- easy
Group dinner --- this is sticky, this is the last staff dinner we will have (our GM moving, team breaking to other departments), how can I not eat with them? - difficult

Maifest 2014 -- We are the host

Launch event: 30Apr
- skip the beers(!!)  - easy
- but how to skip all that German goodness?! all the pork!!!! - a bit difficult but can be done

Our hosted nights: 08-10May
- skip the beers - easy
- skip everything!!! - a bit difficult but can be done

Bestie's Birthday party on the 10th May
- skip the beers - easy
- skip the cake... - a bit difficult as the cheesecake I'm having made for her is my favorite..
- skip everything!!! :'( :'( - best case scenario

Conference in May - pack food for 4days-can be done, minibar is a fridge

14May
- skip the inflight food-- tricky  and possibly not good, because I fly at 1:20am, reach at 9:10am, conference starts at 10am, how can I last until lunch?? if pack my food, it will be on check-in luggage.
- eat packed lunch  -- tricky and most probably not possible as this is a networking event too :( i would look very odd..
- dinner: very tricky, all delegates will be taken out to dinner :(; a group dinner in a fine dining restaurant-- EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, how can I manage?

CRAAAPPPPP!!

15May
- skip everything (?) stick to DCs and coffee- tricky, but can be done, depends on the level of networking going on
- dinner with friends- possible only if my packed food is not yet spoiled
???????????

16May: Full day Wachau Valley Bike Tour  with Wine Tasting
- howwwww to skip all the good wine tasting?? -EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, how can I manage?
- eat packed food if its still good - hopefully still ok, if not????

17May
-eat packed food if its still not ruined  - hopefully still ok, if not????
- skip in flight meal (6hr flight)  - can be done, I will just sleep it off.. stick to DCs
- dinner at home by 10:30 - easy

Annual Agent Awards June;  - easy but tricky; I am host/emcee for this, so I can skip the dinner as best case scenario OR I could be so hungry due to all the standing and talking that I will be ravenous and just eat,. This is def the last agent awards for our company..

France and Home Trip: I thought I would be on refeed by this time (June) if I am still on the plan, I am screwed..

I am seriously panicking, that I will fall off the plan..

I should take this one day at a time..

*thud*

All meals & vitamins taken on time, 1DC, placed a tsp of turmeric on my chicken dish today which is something new.. Picked up my foster cat from the vet today..

Day 58, DV free.

Day 55, 56, 57: Weekend Roll

Nothing much to report with the diet, aside from the fact that I still am missing my TOM and that I am getting hungrier quite quickly after meals.

I bought chromium tablets so I hope that will work against the food cravings, hoping that my hunger is due to cravings and not real hunger.

I havent worked out at all this week!! I got a call from the gym to check why I havent been coming and they recommended to freeze my membership. I am thinking to do this from 15May-15June 2014

Day 55 was spent in the office and ended up watching Transcendence. Reached home around 12:30mn and was so hungry I ate another peach, technically the allowance is counted on Day 56..

Day 56, went to buy some groceries, measured my proteins and thats it. Was lazy in the morning. In the afternoon I went to my friend's house to spend time with her and her mom. In the evening we watched The Other Woman. It was hilarious! :D Had 2 fruits today, so I had 3 in total, counting the peach I ate at 12:30 early morning/midnight.

Im starting to be pretty annoyed that I cannot have popcorn and nachos!

Day 57, was volunteering day. It was a tiring 3 hours. After our shift, we ended up on our backs on the park's garden, enjoyed the breeze, and rested our backs. After an hour, we headed to the beach for some tanning. Spent a good 3.5hrs there.. got a good tan ofcourse. After this, I went for a massage. Reached home and cooked 2days worth of meals.

All meals taken on time, lots of DCs in between but within allowance, fruits, crackers and vitamins taken.

Day 55,56,57, DV free.

Day 54: Missing Madamme Period (TOM)

Ok, its been 10days delayed. I've read that TOM can go kaput on you once you are on CD coz of the sudden change in diet and hormones, but this quick? Ive only been 8weeks in the program. I have been feeling minor cramps for the past few days thought, but no sign of Madamme Period. :/



as much as i hate to admit it..

Albeit sleepless, I fixed myself to hide the late night I had yesterday. Put on good coverage for my under eye circles, fixed my hair neatly on a high ponytail, wore a chic all-black ensemble with pointy heels! and reached work on time. While everyone in the office were showing signs of not having a good hrs of sleep, I was looking "fresh" :D

I was in an upbeat mood too :) coz the pair of cigarette pants I was wearing was a bit loose on me already and I bought them 2wks ago! Feels good.. :)

I emailed my consultant yesterday coz I am having several issues that I need to answers to:

1) I am getting hungry pretty quickly after my meals. Most specially at night. Answers were:

"...dont have cheese and yogurt meals because its the least filling "

I answered back that I only have cheese and yogurt once a week and received this reply

"Please can you add an additional chromium supplement. Please avoid exercising at the moment. Please keep us posted on how you are feeling."

I am taking 2 multi-vitamins per day already, so decided not reply back to this one.

"...make sure Vit B6 intake is not more than 5mg"

Ok, I am always below this..

...do not exercise for now 

I havent gone for yoga for about a week now..

...if you feel too hungry and shaky please ADD to your daily program one fruit and 5 crackers for the next 10 days

When I read this, I was like wow! 1 more fruit and 5 more crackers!! Excellent! However, I have no intentions of doing this, just as a last resort. I didnt even ask if these will have an effect on weightloss coz I have no intention to try.

2) Missing Madamme Period

.. Weight changes (weight gain or weight loss) might temporarily affect the menstrual cycle; however, if the menstrual cycle is not normalized (after the re-feeding) we would suggest a gynecological checkup.

Too vague, but what to do?

3) Checked if Nabisco crackers were accepted to the program as I have read in the forum that these were delish

Saltine Crackers ? Nabisco are the most popular in the USA and the best part is that you can have two crackers for every one in your allowance.

Which btw I havent seen anywhere here.

4) Asked if they have a referral program as 2 of my friends had signed up because of me and 2 more are waiting if for feedback from them

We try to keep our costs as low as possible and therefore we do not have a referral program/promotion but we hope that it will encourage you even more to work hard and keep up the good work now that your friends are also eating healthy.

Yah right :/

I am also in the midst of experimenting with meals switching having meal 1 as the last one. here is what I observed:

After day 1 weigh in:

Meal 3 - > Meal 2 -> Meal 1- > crackers and fruits in between - >2 DCs: 200mg drop

After day 2 weigh in:  did not have meal 1 as the last meal but the 1st meal

Meal 1 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 2- > crackers and fruits in between - > 3 DCs: no movement

After day 3 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 1 fruit in between - > 3 DCs: 400mg drop

After day 4 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DC: 200mg drop

After day 5 weigh in: 1 fruit is a peach and 1 big mango

Meal 2 - > Meal 3 -> Meal 1- > crackers and 2.5 fruits in between - > 1 DCs: 200mg drop

With what I am seeing, the meal switching works and for me, just having 1 fruit a day instead of 2 makes me lose more than having 2 fruits a day. DCs and crackers doesnt seem to have an effect. I can try cutting back on crackers but I really dont want to, because they mix well with coffee or a DC :D and are easy to carry. The crackers really help me get to my next meal esp. when I am not busy.

Will continue on this experiment until month end.

I went home early today and just decided to relax at home = sat on the couch and watch tv, slept a bit earlier than usual.

All meals intact, vitamins,crackers and fruits taken on time.

Day 54, DV free.

Day 53: Party!

I had to pace my meals and snacks today as I had a hectic late afternoon and evening. I still am on the switching of meals so that means my lightest meal will be in the evening.

BF: meal 2
Snack: cracker + DC
L: meal 3
S: 2 crackers
S: 1 peach
D: meal 1 + 2 crackers

Our office had a joint agent party tonight at Hard Rock Cafe which lasted until 12mn. We had to set up around 5 and I left the venue at 12:30mn as we had to pack up our collaterals. I reached home by 1am! Slept at 1:30.. So much for the HGH boost eh?

I had fun. Good music and fun crowd.

The fried canapes smelled delicious! mini burgers, deep fried mozarella cheese, calamari and other tidbits.. whew..

But I stuck to the plan by having my dinner and 2 DCs and water throughout the night. Didnt touch a single food, didnt drink a single alcohol. I didnt even have my 2nd fruit allowance. I was feeling a bit hungry around 12mn but I decided not to have the fruit.

Day 53, DV free

Day 52: Deprived

Is it just me?

I do feel good, look good, healthier, closer to my rebuild phase and to achieving my ideal body, light and in a better mood and all, but I do feel deprived of the delicious food. The food that I used to enjoy so much..

I sometimes resent being on this diet. That's how much deprivation I am feeling.

Then right after the resentment, I hear myself saying:

"well.. you brought this upon yourself"

... if you havent let yourself go and hogged all those junk like there's no tomorrow, there wouldnt be a need to do something this drastic..

... if you have just learned the word: moderation, then maybe you will still be having those treats every now and then and wont let you balloon up to a 100kg

"what right do you have to complain and feel deprived then? you have hogged a lifetime's worth of chocolates and junk!"

Tough love shit..

Switched my meals today, Meal 2 for breakfast, meal 3 for lunch and meal 1 for dinner. I hope this will have a positive effect on my weightloss. Forgot my 2nd vitamin today, had 1 DC and all my crackers, pear and mango for my fruit allowance.. Cooked my next 3 days worth of meals.. eventhough not in the mood for it..

Day 52, DV free