Day 7: Feeling low

Weighed myself first thing in the morning and weight is up by 200 gms?!? WTH?! This will affect my target week 1 loss. I don't think I will lose as much as I did (at the same period) like the last time..

I've been good for the past few days. The only thing that's not ideal is my sleep. I don't get uninterrupted sleep due to this stupid allergy. I sleep on time but I wake up early morning because I cant breathe through my nose, and sleep is elusive after that.

Otherwise, woke up today like the usual.  Prepared my meals and had my first warm lemon drink in the morning. I hope that will help me. As I drove to office I started feeling tired and heavy. I wasn't hungry, but my joints felt tired. Hmm.. I guess Im far from being in the Zone.


I read my old entries to keep my motivation up, and to check what I was doing on the same day# to get insights to how I was feeling on X day of the program.

I came across my entry about my results on the 4th week.

I like that entry, so detailed and informative. If I do have readers who are on the program now, I suggest to read that entry. This time though, I don't have access to that body composition report as Im not a member of the gym anymore.

Work was full on today and Im pretty ok, was not sluggish or foggy-brained. Im taking on the office mgr job for 5 weeks starting Sunday. So whatever detox symptoms that are still bound to come must come and go before Sunday!! :D

Went to the doc to get prescription for my asthma so decided to get my allergies checked and I got some medicines to take.. will check those out with my consultant before starting.

Other than that, all is good.

Day 7: Deviation free. 1.5 fruit less than allowance
Mood = meh
Hunger= not really hungry at any point during the day.

Day 6: I cant wait!

To be at goal weight, finish reefed and not gain weight

To start working out and gain 7kgs of muscle!! (I determined that my happy weight is 65kgs :D)

To stay at happy weight.

To shop for new clothes! hahaha

I just cant wait for the good things to come!!!

Im just on my 6th day... So near yet so far...

I've given myself a year to pin this down. Uff! A goal that I actually achieve.

When I started this journey 2 years ago, I had a solid plan: REDUCE. REBUILD. MAINTAIN. I wrote a post about what I want to achieve here and I still want to get there.

Day 6 still feels easier than any of the days I attempted to get back on the bus using the old plan. Its really amazing. There was a part of me thinking that this food allocations being unique for each individual is BS, but looks like that its not.

I decided to take on a new plan because previously, every time I start, fail and then think of starting again (using old plan), I always wonder why is it so difficult this time?! On my first try in 2014, the cravings, missing of junk and taste of other food were there, but the desire to deviate was not strong. The subsequent attempts after gaining more than 8kgs were just merely pitiful! I am just sorry that I didn't think of getting a new plan sooner. Like "duh"-- Ive been trying for 2 years and it didn't work, so maybe the plan really doesn't work for me anymore! That was a huge clue staring point blank on my face and I didn't want to see it! Basically because I wanted to save my money... and in consequence, wasted 24 months.

I felt sleepy throughout the afternoon. I didn't have much to do at work. Been reading the forum for tips.

Day 6 - DV free. .5 fruit under allowance. Took 1 multivitamin only.
Mood = fine.
Hunger- manageable and not really hungry

Day 5: Deviations: Dont Do It!

Deviations - Just don't do it! Don't even toy with the idea. Don't you even dare step within the same block of smelling your temptations. Just don't.
 
Ive been good for 5 days, but it doesn't mean that I don't get cravings or that I don't miss my favorite junk. Every so often during the day, thoughts of having these treats have crept up and tested my willpower:
 
"Chocolate. Why cant I have just one? Its just 1% of what I will eat today"
"Bread. Just a slice. Why not? Then eat your regular meals."
"Meet your friends for dinner and eat your dinner there."
 
So easy to make justifications for the deviation. But experience will have it, once I start to give in, it will snowball from there and then I sit  there feeling bad about myself.

See there's a problem here. Its all or nothing THIS IS NOT A GOOD THING. For me to be successful on  maintenance, I should be able to handle it. Handle just having a piece of a cake and not finish the whole one. Or a line or 2 of chocolate and not the whole damn pack! As of now, I don't know how to resolve this. Shall I ask professor Google? :D

Im not strong enough to socialize yet. But eventually I will get there like before.

So for deviations, I will not even try and think that I can reign it all in. I've been there before. Funny thing is I've read this advise on the forum. During my first round I was so good that I haven't deviated at all and I have been toying with the idea of deviating, just to know. And everyone there kept telling me not to start deviating. Now I know what they meant and how it feels.

So lesson for the day: Deviation --> DONT DO IT AND BE A GOOD GIRL!

Note: No movement in the scale this morning. I wonder why? I've been within allowance and observed the timing requirements for meals and snacks.. hmmm

Day 5: Deviation free

Day 4: Paying my dues

And I am way overdue.

Two things:

First, with being healthy and fit. I have given in to my old eating habits PLUS have stopped working out all together. (BTW, still not successful in waking up early for yoga). Its difficult to get back in to habit of working out.

Second, being new in the job with high expectations of me, will require me to "sow my oats" or "pay my dues" in order to reap the rewards later. I was informed yesterday that I have to take over the office mgr job in the office where I am training while she is on vacation. Due to their established work system, I will be required to stay in the office until 8pm every day! every damn day! :( But the thing is, I can see the benefit of doing that for my future in this company, and hopefully Im right. So I have to suck it up for 5 weeks and have to eat most of my [packed] dinners here.

I slept restlessly yesterday. I don't know. Just couldn't sleep. Bf had to get up at 3am so Im awake at 3am and was able to get my sleep back around 4:30, then had to wake up at 6am...

Cohen wise, today was ok. I made my breakfast too garlicky to be in the presence of other people! :D I love garlic, no issues, but when I can actually smell myself.. Im worried Im making the room stink too.

Didn't lose as much when I weighed in this morning, I have a feeling that the 7-up free has something to do with it. It also makes me phlegm-y (I think). Cut back today so lets see tomorrow.

For the hunger part, its less today. Its more of being bored of what Im eating and I want something else or something really tasty. hmmm..

Day 4: Deviation free. 1 fruit less than allowance. 1 DC.

Day 3: Scrape your apples!

Ive been doing this for a while and Im not sure if a lot of people are aware, but the wax coating on fruits that makes it oh-so-shiny-appealing, doesn't go off with just a rinse. And even if you wash it with soap, nope, the wax coating doesn't fully come off. The only surefire way to get rid of it is to scrape it, look at what I got from my apple this morning!

<- ugh.. yuck..  imagine that going inside your body???


Anyway, the scales continue to go down at an amazing rate, I wonder how much weight I would lose on the 7th day.

1st working day on the plan and it went well. I wasn't tempted by the usual temptations that I succumb to in this place- chocolates and freshly baked papa roti buns! (I can eat 2 in one go)

I planned to wake up at 5 and do yoga, but failed on that one. Will try again tomorrow.

Boy do I get bored easily. Workload hasn't really come in yet so I was either looking for stuff to do online, or thinking about food. It doesn't help that the coffee in the machine sucks big time! And no coffee shop nearby. The coffee sold in papa roti is also not nice. Maybe Ive just gotten used to Tchibo.

By 12 noon, I already had 1 fruit and 1 DC. Was really looking forward to lunch so that I have something else to do. Was craving too, but not for a specific food, but craving to eat something despite of being occupied. Hmmm there sure lies a problem there.

Daily temptations list is starting to take form.... :D

I took my measurements yesterday. I just did a quick one, the important parts. I may have to do it again as I checked my previous chart, it was so detailed and it was in 'cms'.

Had to work late. Reached hone at 8 and cooked dinner. Ate before 9. Meh. 

Day 3: deviation free. 1 fruit under allowance.