Day 37: The Number 36

Woke up, gained 400gms. I know I said I wouldnt weigh myself daily but only after 10days, but couldnt help myself..

I almost deviated today, out of choice due to anger and frustration. I couldnt even begin to write it.. Its the fuckall of all news.. So I'd rather not get started and all the flying fucks and mother fuckers will trod on this entry..

Anyhow, I almost reached and took a handful of those Hershey's chocolate nuggets from my colleague who just came back from US and wanted to munch on each single one of them.. The chocolatey goodness..


But the only thing that stopped me is the number 36.

36 days of eating Cohen clean.

Do I just throw it all away? I know it will only add to the misery of the day. I know that at the first taste of that chocolate, I have disregarded my 36 days of hard work. No, not disregarded it BUT I would have set myself back 1 week- ON PURPOSE. Why would I do that?!

All meals taken on time. I forgot my multivitamins and note to self: never to forget again. As the hunger and cravings are evident without it. I had to stop myself from eating my crackers and my fruits, otherwise I will not have anything else except dinner in the evening..

Day 37, DV free.

Thats all. Thank you.

Day 34, 35, 36: All in a Roll

Nothing much happened and at the same time so much has happened that I had to combine these 3 days in one entry.

Day 34

Was bleh.. Went on to work, counting the hours until the weekend finally starts. Had the choice between yoga and sleep and I decided to go home early and sleep. But I didnt. What's up with that??

We went clubbing in the evening as we wanted to try this F Studio Club, which kinda sucked. I mean the music sucked. We were looking forward to some dancing but the music(which was good for lounging) did not fit our taste. So we went on to Boudior, and lo and behold, our hiphop rnb craving were satieted. We danced from 12:30 til 2:30 in our closed high-heeled shoes (some stupid requirement from F Club). I could barely make it back to the car.

All meals intact btw and had dinner by 9 and had an apple before the club. I just ordered a bottle of water :) yay me!

Day 35

Since I slept around 4am, I missed breakfast! yep thats right. I set my alarm for 9:30 and woke up at 12:30 in search of my phone. And for the life of me, I cant figure out how my phone unhooked itself from charging and found its way beside me on the other side of the bed :D

So I immediately emailed my consultant. Should I stick to the 3 meals but adjust my timings until 10pm? Or should I keep the 9PM last meal of the day (which means I will skip 1 meal). And the stickler of an answer was:

Thank you for your e-mail.

Please do not skip meals as this trains your body to store your food as fat.

Rather have your meals, 5 hours apart and wait at least 1 hour prior to going to bed after your last meal.

Please let us know if you have any further questions.

Sheesh.. So I had 3 meals today but moved the timings.  I slept by 12.

For lunch, I decided to have a cheese meal. I chopped up my veggies pretty finely (mushrooms + zucchini+cabbage+onions+capsicum), stir fried them and placed a spoon of Philadelphia fat free on top of it until it melted completely. Served it with green apples on top (cubed) and kept the rest of the cheese allowance on the side. It tasted good! I loved it..

Cheese- back on the list :D

I was a total vegetable today. I planned to:

- clean:  nah couldnt be bothered
- laundry: too lazy to get bum out of the couch
- shop for food:  i didnt want to change out of my old-as-rag clothes, make my face decent and comb my hair

Needless to say, I didnt do anything productive today, but ate all my meals

Day 36

Oh this day was hectic:

8am: 1 load in the wash > washed my cat's litter box > gave my cat a bath > given antibiotics to my foster cat and cleaned his litter box > cooked brekky > went out for groceries > weighed my proteins and some veggies and kept in fridge > cooked lunch & dinner > met friends at the beach for some beach volley > watched Sabotage > dinner> cooked 2 days worth of meals

And Im sure, by tomorrow I would have gained like another 200gms again. I am seeing a pattern that stress (in this sense) makes me gain.

I should learn this lesson and do something about it. Im being too lazy to divide up my day.. I dunno as stupid as that sounds..


Day 34-36, DV free

Day 33: Incentive

For all the hard work I've done for the past month, I decided to reward myself with a Samsung Note 10.1.. I know this is a tad too much but I figured it can be a birthday gift for myself as well. And now I am enjoying my Scribd and downloaded as much ebooks as I can :D

After completing refeed, I intend to reward myself again. Hopefully by that time I have raised the money to do this. I am going with my friends to France and visit Lyon, Dijon and finally get to go up the Eiffel Tower. I have been to Paris before and done ALL except for that tower, so Im going to check that out of my list.

The main reward though, is Barcelona, my friend and I will head there after Paris and spend a good 4 days.

Day 33 started out great and ended great as well.

I took my foster cat at 8am to the vet as he has been having the cat flu.. then the other lady who found him offered to take him to her place while I go to work and just collect him afterwards.

The vet is like a 10min drive to office so I arrived early.

Threw out the bouquet of flowers given on my birthday and took the flowers that are still good, placed them in a vase.. Looks nice on my table.

Had tried another brekky meal which again I did not check my plan, the yogurt meal does not have a veggie allowance. Stupid me. Another deviation to begin my week 5.. phewft! It was yummyyyyyy though..

We celebrated a colleague's 25th year in the company with a specially flown in fondant cake from Germany.

The day was relaxed (boss out of the country), ended early as I had to go for a meeting outside at 4pm.

All meals intact, all fruits, crackers, vitamins and water taken. No DC for today, so yay!

BF: Fage 0% Fat Greek Yogurt + 1 mango cheek + 70g cucumber +water +ice + 1 stick of stevia +vitamin --- despite deviating by 70g cucumber, this brekky was filling and delicious!!!! It actually made me feel guilty.
S: really black coffee
L: Chicken oregano stirfyr + mixed veggies + rest of the mango
S: decaf black
D: Garlic Tilapia with ginger and balsamic vinegar + mixed veggies
S: 1 cracker

Met friends for Shisha in the evening. Lovely time.. Lovely shisha.... :)

Day 33, NOT DV free.. I have got to read my program over and over again..

Day 32: Round Two

As happy as I am to have lost so much in a span of 31 days, I did set a deadline for myself, 20kgs in 2 months, and I fell 1.3kg short.  I need to do the best I could to meet this deadline:

March - off with the first 10kg

April - off with the next 10 kgs

May- 15 -18 days on refeed --> will be in a 4 day conference in Vienna.. soooo a bit worried abt this, if I am at least at the end of refeed, I would have somehow gotten the hang of it already

May to 1st week June- 15 or X days on maintenance--> I am travelling back home for 10days for a wedding, and being home, and meeting friends will entail a lot of mom's homecooked food and eating out. I should be able to handle this [somehow] well by then

June- should be carrying on well with maintenance

How to achieve this? After scouring through the newyouforum website, I will try these during this month:

1) switch meals around

2) strictly monitor water intake, play within 2-2.5L
3) fruits will be apples and oranges alone -- will be generous during TOM by having 2 mangoes
4) avoid DCs as much as possible, maximum 1 per day if I really need it.
5) strictly do Yoga, minimum twice a week.. NO WEIGHTS training.
6) if I decide to have cheese, I will have 2x in one month, on the 1st and 2nd wk.
7) sleep 7-8hrs-- >> Oh yes, the toughest one
8) Stop weighing myself daily. Will just weigh myself every 10 days
                                                        (IF I CAN CONTROL MYSELF :D)
                                             9) DO NOT STRESS!! --> thats why Im writting this now.. to de-stress..

I did try that Lemon drink in the morning.. And OMFG!!! sour!sour! sour! I think my tummy got a shock of acidity. I had half a lemon (with skin and all), 100ml of ACV, and water all blended together. I took it before brekky, and initially I was think of having half the lemon and the rest of ACV before lunch, but I seriously dont think I can stomach it. I will have it once a day this week and see if I can increase it next week.

Meals are cooked yesterday with some balsamic vinegar in one of the meals.. Lets see.

BF: Lemon AVC drink + Egg omellete + crackers + multivitamins
S: 1 cracker and just sipped my DC from 11:30 until it finished in the afternoon
L: Chicken veggie stirfy, with oregano.. yumm
S: Apple + DC
D: tilapia fillets with balsamic vinegar + stir fried veggies

Watched Divergent with some friends today. The popcorn smell is still intoxicating. I figured if I could have endured it 3 times and did not give in, why not now? So, I didnt have one, I had my apple, my dinner, and 2 crackers with me in the cinema, and ate the apple first before reaching the cinema, and had dinner and crackers before the movie ended. Just sipped DC throughout the movie.

Day 32, DV Free.

ROUND UP ->Week 1 to 4 & Results

I just want to scream-- boooyah!!! *with my fist up in the air* :D

I cant believe its been 4wks! It all went by so quickly and Im down 8.7Kgs! Victory Dance for me!! whoo hooo hooo!

Although I planned for 10kgs on the 1st month..

As per my body composition analyzer results, these are the most important parameters:

Fitness Parameters	28-Feb	1-Apr	Change
BMI (range: 18.5-25)	27.2	24.2	-3.0
Weight (range: 51-69.8 kg)	76.9	68.2	-8.7
Muscle Mass (22.9-28.3)	28.4	26.8	-1.6
Fat Control	-10.4	-5.2	-5.2
Waist to hip ratio (range: .75-.85)	0.93	0.89	-0.04
BMR (range: .1391-1618kcal)	1476	1417	-59.0
Clothes Size	12	8	2 sizes down

These are just the basics and the most important, but every fitness measurement as per this machine has improved significantly-- I am now within ALL NORMAL ranges (and in some exceeded by some points only)!!

My segmental lean and segmental fat are now ALL NORMAL, except for my segmental fat % in my midsection.

I highlighted 2 above as these 2 are not something im actually that happy about:

Muscle Mass has decreased by 1.6 kgs. Meaning, 1.6kg of my current weight loss actually came from my muscle mass.. hmmm not ideal

BMR: My initial range was 1746-2051 kcal, which means I can eat up to 2051 kcal per day. But now, my range is 1391-1618kcal per day, which means I can now only eat up to a max of 1681kcal per day. I know this is due to the low cal diet + significantly less exercise.

The only good thing is that the recommended for me to lose is just 59kcal less than what was recommended for me when I was seriously working out. :)
 

Total centimeters lost: 106.04 cms!!! But this is my whole body measurement, each body part taken into consideration. You can see all details  here

It is worth a look, trust me! The overall change is exciting!! My segmental fat/lean, the cms I lost per body part is yebah!!! Mini human wave for me.. whooo hooo hoo!

But if we are to look at the major ones, I lost a total of 46.3cms and 2 clothes sizes down:

Measurements (in cms)	28-Feb	1-Apr	Change
Bust	104	95.3	-8.7
Waist	90	87	-3.0
Hips	104.5	97	-7.5
Mid Tricep R	33	29.5	-3.5
Mid Tricep L	32	26.5	-5.5
Mid Thigh R	58.74	53.7	-5.0
Mid Thigh L	58.5	54.5	-4.0
Mid Calf R	41.3	36.7	-4.6
Mid Calf L	41.2	36.7	-4.5
Total Lost			-46.3

 

Other factors that are useful to note:

1) Skin: same, no dryness, I guess this is due to the 1tsp of Omega 3 Liquid that I am taking every morning (i've been taking this even before the program). Plus I average about 3L of water a day.

BUT, I am seeing some loose skin, it doesnt look so bad to me, but I seriously dont look "firm". I hope my skin catches up quickly..

2) Hair: Well Im not sure if I am losing more hair than normal, but what I have noticed is that my hair doesnt get so oily after 1 day, like before. I only noticed this on the 4th week when I didnt wash my hair for 3 days! :D I used to wash my hair everyday because it becomes oily looking, makes it look flatter and thinner than it is.

3) Nails: I dont see any difference

4) Mood:  Definitely improved. On the first 7 days, I noticed I really feel happy which I cannot explain. I was always in a good mood. I was actually thinking if there is something wrong with me. I also didnt feel the same amount of "dread and depression" prior to my periods. I did feel a bit low, but nothing compared to how I was before- bloated, irritable, mean, depressed, tired, and joints in some pain.. This is excellent for me!

5) Strength: Ah, I am weaker definitely. Weights training- not possible

6)  Energy: Ive been up and about and usually spent at the end of the day

What I have learned these past 4 weeks:

1) Patience: to shop for food, cook, pre-pack 1 weeks worth of meals

2) Discpline: to stick within what the program requires of me

3) Willpower: to say no to daily temptations

4) Perseverance: to keep up with the plan and to consciously tell myself not to deviate

5) Determination: to reach the end of my REDUCE phase by keeping in mind the first 4

6) Sleep does play a big role in weight loss-- so better get enough of it

As cheeky as those 5 were :D I really did discover that I CAN DO IT, if I set my mind to it and take accountability for it. I never thought I had this much discipline when it comes to food, because I grew up knowing that I dont have it.

I may not have reached my 10kg goal, but I am still over joyed with my overall results!! Cant wait to report to my consultant.

Happy ^_^