Day 59: Observations

lol :D

I've been hearing these a lot lately:


"Dont lose more, you are going to dissappear!" -- :D

"You look tired, you should eat" -- Im looking tired right? why should I eat? maybe you could say I should sleep or rest?

"The charm in your face had gone" -- more than twice! ufff!

"Dont lose so much weight, if you become super thin, its not a good look as well. Your face has become too thin.. or about to." -- I agree with this, but at the back of my mind I am not yet at goal weight..

I dont mind hearing them, its just that its difficult to explain why I am still on my diet. No one, who has not been on CD will understand the importance of reaching goal weight.

I have noticed these too:

1) I cannot walk as fast as I used to and as fast or upbeat when I used to climb the stairs. I feel like my bum is heavy and my legs wont move the way they used to as I walk up the stairs, and its just 2 flights! I can usually zoom through it. I have strong, muscled legs so I know Im good at stair climbing and speed walking (despite being overweight before)

2) feeling some lower back pain.. I thought this was due to yoga, but I havent been to yoga for a week and its still there. I went for a massage 2 days ago, hoping it will go away but its still there.. some lingering pain, not dying pain but this uncomfortable pain..

3) Sleep has become even shorter. I dont sleep early, somehow I cant manage to. But for the past 3 days, I've been waking up at between 530-630am! I dont know if its my cat, coz she meows to open the balcony door in the morning, but thats usually around 7-ish..

4) Hungrier. I mean, I get hungry quite quickly after meals. Also, in the morning, from the time I wake up and when I reach the office (before my 1st meal), I find myself saying, "I am sooo hungry" sometimes to myself, or out loud. I bought my chromium capsules to help with this.. I hope it works.. its been 3 days..

On the positive side:

1) NONE, as in NONE of my work clothes fit- trousers, dresses, blouses. I really have to buy office pants at least.. I am not looking forward to it, coz the 1 pair I bought 3wks ago, is no longer fitting well..

2) my skinny jeans is no longer skinny

3) my normal jeans, look like boyfriend pants on me now :D

4) being in a bikini is alright.. have some loose skin in my tummy area.. but its ok.. it just looks like im someone who needs to tone up.. stretch marks had made themselves visible on my hips and breasts though :'( I bought Bio Oil and try if it will work on them..

I dont know what's really going on or what is going to happen, and I have 2days (last month had 31days) more until my 8wk weigh in. So lets see..

All meals taken &vitamins on time, 1DC, crackers and fruits in between.

Day 59, DV free..

Day 17: Happy Bunny

 I am :D

The scale has moved down again this morning.. so whew..

People keep telling me:

"You've lost so much weight!" *smile sweetly*

"You look toned now." -- "I am?" *smile*

"You lost weight?" -- "Yes" *smile proudly*

"What more you want to lose??" :D I answer 13kgs more, and they go "Whatttt???!!!!!" *snicker inside and smile*

"What diet are you doing? Give me the food plan!" --- Ummm noo zzirrreeee.. "let me tell you..."

Honestly if you look at me before Cohens, I was just chubby. I have shape, but Im not flab free, so people are more forgiving of my size and I think I look taller than I really am (posture is quite good, my teenage years were spent with my mom correcting my sloppy posture in my attempt to hide them "girls").

You can call me "proportionately fat!" :D

But the truth is, I am fat. I have fat, which I want to lose..

See, at the beginning of this journey, I have clarified that my aim was not to be skinny. Although for now that seems to be the route Im taking. So when people ask "What more do you want to lose?", I really cannot explain quickly my REDUCE, REBUILD and MAINTAIN plan.. Its kind of tiring...

5kgs really does make a difference. I dont know from where that 5kgs came from (from fat, from muscle, from water) but the effect on my appearance is totally SIGNIFICANT. Comments like that make me feel proud and want to go further.

Today was quite a busy day, I kept 2 DCs on my desk for that sweet craving (just had 1 though).. I seriously miss those cookies and the biscuits that I love to have nearly everyday. Cashew biscuits dunked in orange juice and I suckle on them first before chewing.. yumm yumm

Ate my meals as planned, but I think I had too much button mushrooms for today (4.5 pcs- 2.5 for BF and 1 per meal). I heard mushrooms have an effect on weightloss, guess will find that out tomorrow morning.

BF: egg+mushrooms,capsicum,onion
S: 1 crispbread and coffee
     sipped DC through before lunch
L: Beef stirfry + veggies - cabbage, capsicum, onion, mushroom
S: 2 crispbreads
D: Stir fried Bok Choy (in garlic,onion and ginger) topped of with garlic-ky prawns and tilapia fillets + 2 crispbreads
S: 1 cheek and the bone/middle of a mango (kept the other cheek for tomorrow's breakfast..

DV free but forgot to take my multivitamins today.. :/

I shopped for afew clothes.. my aim was just to buy a birthday dress but I ended up with a lot more.. I did buy the clothes 1 size smaller or fitting tight passable to be worn now, but would look better when i lost more weight. :)

I cant wait for the Rebuild phase of my plan.. Uff!! I can see those toned muscles coming up!!!



Im an Angel.. until you leave
this room & stop giving
me cuddles!

On a side note, my foster cat is driving me nutttttsss!! he is such a sweetheart, but whenever I leave him alone in the kitchen, he cries and cries and cries like madness!!!

Thank God for earplugs!

Good day people! :*