42nd Day: Choco Fear

Another week..

I informed my consultant about the 3 days I was off plan and asked if she has tips for me to recover my losses quicker (if there is such a thing). She just said to stick to the most filling meals and that the first 4 days will be hard..  😒

I can't help but feel that it is unfair! I was pushed in a situation that is really OUT OF MY CONTROL and now I'm suffering for it and will suffer for who knows how long.

I'm not updating my ticker and will only record my losses. 20 kgs to go.. goal weight seems so far away.

Good thing today is, a colleague noticed my weight loss.. thank God somebody noticed!!

I think I will break for several slabs of my
favorite chocolate brand - Läderach 💓💓💓

Reached home this evening and my bf was craving for chocolates. He took the liberty of being off his plan while I was away and I said "NO!". I was in fact afraid to let chocolates back inside the house. I seriously felt that once they are back, we're in for a downward spiral.

After reading as much as I could on the forum and on the wide web, I know that right now, I'm holding the floodgates really well, but if I slip.. I would be sorry for it..

I'm glad he listened. But my mind wandered off to my favorite chocolate brand Laederach. Gosh, I would love a piece of this.. This is the only chocolate that I didnt eat in 1 sitting. A small piece was enough to curb the craving. I bought around 40 CHF worth of chocos at that time. It was/is expensive, but it lasted me for 2 weeks, instead of 2 days!! 

Love... love.. love... :(

How do I get to the point that I can control my chocolate intake? That I dont end up eating a whole pack every single time? My mind just answered -- AWARENESS. I just need to be aware and sensible all the time. But, easier said than done huh?

Day 42: All meals, crackers, & vits taken on time. No fruits. 1 DC. Deviation free

Day 6: Beef Day!

This girl gotta have meat! :))

I love beef! And im so glad my meat allowance is quite good. I am happy just eating this for the entire program :D, I know, I know, variety is also key to weight loss. But man! was I happy to have this for today. I had beef for lunch and chicken for dinner and brekky was egg and veggie.. I liked my dishes for today.. Happy tummy ^_^

I went for yoga again today. Im so glad that I can still keep up with some form of exercise while on CD.  After dinner, I went to the movies with a friend today at around 11:30pm, I dont think I should be out yet. Im not strong enough. As we were heading towards the cinemas, I just longed so much for the smell o food coming from those restaurants, and those ar my favorite restos. Inside the cnema, the smell of popcorn  and nachos intoxicated me. I had to muster all the self control I have and just sipped my diet cola... :((((

I got to sleep around 3am.. hmmm Im not gonna get the 8hr sleep.

Other than that, nothing much to report today. Im still deviation free. \m/

Tomorrow is the weekend.. Lets see how I will do...