25th Day: Making Procrastination Work for Me :)

Tee-hee..

Its almost Eid and we are currently off season at work, so there are tons of opportunities to not really work. I am currently planning ahead the things to do etc once the season kicks off in Oct, but right now.. I'm not. :p

Im using this time to re-read my diary in the newyouforum, giving myself a reminder of who I was or how I was on plan. I surprised myself a few times with what I wrote. I admire that woman, so tough, deviation free for almost 70-80 days? :D

I've also been reading up on other posts and the links that Koh had suggested. Tons of great material! That forum is really amazing, and it does help to keep your head straight to goal. Read up on a few diaries too.

The forum is way too quiet. It does help when people respond, because its nice to know that you are being heard? at the same time though, if there were a lot of people active there, it means a lot of people are also trying to lose weight (?). Anyhoo, I hope those people who were commenting on my diary are well out of the cycle of trying to get to goal, or at least living in health.

I'm still on plan and deviation free. Nothing to report much. 

I have a problem with sleeping though. I get to bed by 10 and I dont sleep until late.. past midnight. I just cant sleep good. But in the afternoon, I do. Like yesterday, reached home around 4:30, had some crackers, and did some stuff around the house to keep myself awake. Did some mindless browsing, and at around 7 dozed off! uff, at 7:30 bf came home and I woke up from the deepest sleep I ever had!! It was so good. Why cant I have that when its actually time to sleep?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!

Argh.

We have a very long weekend next week and Im not travelling anywhere.. 8 days of being at home. Im already enumerating the things I should do because knowing me, when Im bored, I think of eating and thats a long time of being bored that I just might deviate by not being prepared.

Day 25 - All meals, fruits & crackers taken, vitamins too. Deviation free.

Day 70 & 71: Self Sabotage Weekend

All that righteous talk, phewft! out the window...

No experiment, just giving in to old habits. And its not like there something emotional that happened. No, its just me being lazy, slacking off, taking a break, or whatever it is you want to call it. I was just lazy.

Me to me: "you arrogant $^%&^*&8!! "

These two days were full of deviations all brought about by boredome, laziness, and just pure slacking off..

I have given away my stock of Provita's as it does bring out the binge. It always starts with this.

Day 70: Cracker Doom

Since I ate only crackers yesterday evening, I didnt feel so hungry when I woke up this morning. I ate Meal 2 for breakfast.. and found myself eating Provita's for the rest of the day, topped off with Liver Spread from Germany + DC.

By the time I hit the beach with a friend, I felt so bloated, it hurt to even lie on my tummy to tan my back..

Bring in the birthday celebration.

Since I didnt cook today, I ate at my friend's party that I hosted. I tried a few of this and that, not really hogged (in my opinion), but didnt choose the type of food either, had a few:

- 5 forkfulls of the bavarian pork salad
- 3 spoonfulls of that pork knuckle
- 2 spoonfulls of smoked salmon
- 3 spoonfulls of baked potato with sour cream

It was the Maifest ey!  so pork, pork pork all around!
Im guessing what I ate is a normal sized plate, almost full..

But what killed me is the desserts. I had my own:

- 2scoops of vanilla ice cream+ strawberries + vanilla cream+ topped whipped cream+ with a dash of alcohol (i think its white wine?)

- 1 slice of that strawberry cheesecake

Both were so good, I didnt even feel sorry about it. I didnt touch any alcohol..

The night was fun though, almost whole night of dancing and singing with the band. We partied for 4 hours. The birthday celebrant got so drunk :D I had 20 guests for her birthday and all had a wonderful time.

Im good with events I reckon? :D

Went home, had a laxative tea, and slept.

Day 71: Heights of Laziness

Woke up at 12noon: +1kg

Slept, ate crackers, slept, ate crackers, slept. Didnt go to the grocery to shop, didnt cook. Was able to do 1 load of laundry (yay me! Not!).

I didnt feel like eating anything else. TV on the whole day. I ordered by 2pm:

- 2 Quanta Almond on stick

By 05pm:

- 2 Quanta Almond on stick
- 1 kitkat 4 fingers
- 1 cheetos cheese -big

By 08pm:

- I finished 1 pack of Provita I opened in the morning with the liver spread.

And thats that. I didnt eat anything substantial today.

I was supposed to go meet colleagues at the Maifest tent, but I couldnt get myself off the couch

I just slept througout the day.

This is an old weekend behaviour habit..

Day 70 & 71: Burnnnnn, NOT DV free, NOT in CD..